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letting life flow
| Fri, 01-27-2006 - 7:41pm |
My new attitude. I am tired of trying to maniest things with my thoughts, certain type prayers, act as if, all the things we read in those manifesting books. I decided I have the cake, maybe not all the frosting, but I have a great cake. I think the universe knows what I need and has a plan for me etc I am just enjoying my hard job, whatever i do have in all ways, try to stay in the now when I get carried away with something. Now today some man drives 100 miles to take me out, not a beliver like us but a very educated professor/opera singer, cross between Alan Alda and Bob Newhart, my X man friend is coming for dinner as a friend Monday ( my greatest joy is my creative cooking) In the past it would be a way to impress etc or I may have said he doesn't deserve this, he abandonned me. now I say, thank you for giving me this moment of joy. I will be able to play making egg rolls and shrimp with orange sauce. have fun setting the table, flowers. having fun. Last week another man friend I have went with me to a restaurant I always wanted to go to. We split the bill as we are friends, but he went because he knew I always wanted to go there. It is an expensive place. So, the cake gets bigger with or without frosting. I am off those books for now and just being and living and being as content as I can be. When I feel lonely I say, how many women would like to have the freedom I have, a good job, a nice place to live, kids that love her, a few really good friends and good health. Then I do something I like even if it is a bubble bath with a good book. I don't have to play the mind games, God can read my heart. That is where my belief is. Love, Leila

Leila, I think that's a very wise decision!
"I am off those books for now..."
This sentence struck me. I have come to that space in my life as well. I have bookshelves full of spiritual books that exemplify my journey of the past 30+ years. Other books come & go, but these stay with me. ;) In reading your words, I realized that for several years, I have resisted buying and reading more spiritually oriented books. And there's always something new, isn't there? :P A new spiritual author, a new book by a favorite author, a book we hear about from others...
I have reached a point in my life in which I feel I do not want others' words inside me any more, shaping my thoughts, perspectives. While my spiritual path has been helped over the years by others' wisdom, I believe now, in my Crone Years of this lifetime, it is time to finally truly trust my own voice, intuition and wisdom. I have done the work and have now come to a point where I don't need confirmation or validation from others, whether in person or through their books.
There is no future. There is no past. All I have really ever had to forge my reality, is myself and the present moment. My ever present NOW created my past, and creates what is to come, moment by moment, in how I choose to experience these ever flowing moments. If I miss them, they are gone forever.
It's a kind of letting go, a freeing of my spirit, I think. No longer seeking to control everything in my life, but to dance and flow with it instead. Letting the Universe, my Goddess, set the tune and rhythm.
Gypsy
Blessings,
Gypsy
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That's beautiful Leila, thanks for sharing!
When I wrote my X boyfriend who said, don't fuss with dinner: I said of course i will fuss, it is my creativity to play in the kitchen and share, that is why I have dinner parties, it brings me such joy. he wrote, You are something else, but I always knew that. Is there anything more I could want? to fulfill myself cooking with appreciation. I am radiant cleaning the house, setting the table, creating foods to share. I read today, we are not creative unless we are able to share it with others. love, Leila
peace and joy./////Within you comes forth to my mind the precious one that you
are.do not accept yourself as in the past, Realize right now that you are a
great treasure(no pride)///Keep the excellent spirit of being a
child-son-daughter of the Most High///What you walk away from God will lead you
,(instruction).In which you will follow and determine the futhure you
create,(Holy Spirit guidance). In closing God will treat you better than you
will treat yourself written by ira krause/////////////Here and there....there is a blending of spirits and surrender of self. For the reality of LIFE the real self. Receive the peace and blessings now. Know and Be. Understanding and gain increased wisdom for wisdom and love united,enter the inner realm to receive and dispense. Life invites you again and again. from imperfect ____Ira_______ to imperfect ___Bink______