letting life flow

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Registered: 03-26-2003
letting life flow
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Fri, 01-27-2006 - 7:41pm
My new attitude. I am tired of trying to maniest things with my thoughts, certain type prayers, act as if, all the things we read in those manifesting books. I decided I have the cake, maybe not all the frosting, but I have a great cake. I think the universe knows what I need and has a plan for me etc I am just enjoying my hard job, whatever i do have in all ways, try to stay in the now when I get carried away with something. Now today some man drives 100 miles to take me out, not a beliver like us but a very educated professor/opera singer, cross between Alan Alda and Bob Newhart, my X man friend is coming for dinner as a friend Monday ( my greatest joy is my creative cooking) In the past it would be a way to impress etc or I may have said he doesn't deserve this, he abandonned me. now I say, thank you for giving me this moment of joy. I will be able to play making egg rolls and shrimp with orange sauce. have fun setting the table, flowers. having fun. Last week another man friend I have went with me to a restaurant I always wanted to go to. We split the bill as we are friends, but he went because he knew I always wanted to go there. It is an expensive place. So, the cake gets bigger with or without frosting. I am off those books for now and just being and living and being as content as I can be. When I feel lonely I say, how many women would like to have the freedom I have, a good job, a nice place to live, kids that love her, a few really good friends and good health. Then I do something I like even if it is a bubble bath with a good book. I don't have to play the mind games, God can read my heart. That is where my belief is. Love, Leila
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In reply to: leilade
Sat, 01-28-2006 - 1:31pm

Leila, I think that's a very wise decision!


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In reply to: leilade
Sat, 01-28-2006 - 1:57pm

"I am off those books for now..."

This sentence struck me. I have come to that space in my life as well. I have bookshelves full of spiritual books that exemplify my journey of the past 30+ years. Other books come & go, but these stay with me. ;) In reading your words, I realized that for several years, I have resisted buying and reading more spiritually oriented books. And there's always something new, isn't there? :P A new spiritual author, a new book by a favorite author, a book we hear about from others...

I have reached a point in my life in which I feel I do not want others' words inside me any more, shaping my thoughts, perspectives. While my spiritual path has been helped over the years by others' wisdom, I believe now, in my Crone Years of this lifetime, it is time to finally truly trust my own voice, intuition and wisdom. I have done the work and have now come to a point where I don't need confirmation or validation from others, whether in person or through their books.

There is no future. There is no past. All I have really ever had to forge my reality, is myself and the present moment. My ever present NOW created my past, and creates what is to come, moment by moment, in how I choose to experience these ever flowing moments. If I miss them, they are gone forever.

It's a kind of letting go, a freeing of my spirit, I think. No longer seeking to control everything in my life, but to dance and flow with it instead. Letting the Universe, my Goddess, set the tune and rhythm.

Gypsy



Blessings,

Gypsy

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Registered: 03-26-2003
In reply to: leilade
Sat, 01-28-2006 - 2:35pm

That's beautiful Leila, thanks for sharing!

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In reply to: leilade
Sat, 01-28-2006 - 7:35pm
Gypsey, that's just how I feel. I also am saying good bye to some things from my youth but loving the new me. I think the church thing is surprising me, not caring to go, I will at some point to be with similar thinking people. although all people at church are not all that healthy. I had a recent heroin addict as a patient who goes to my church. Many are seeking answers. I think I have found many for myself. I am off the kick of manifesting a husband this year. Maybe that is not what i need. I don't need to know more than this day, to love and be happy and trust the universe to guide me. Sometimes I think the men that I meet are not for my partners but for me to help them in their journeys which somehow helps mine. There is a certain freedom in all this. it is kind of like a dance, ups and downs, dancing in circles, stomping the feet, the dance of life. Love, leila
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In reply to: leilade
Sat, 01-28-2006 - 7:45pm
hi Ginger, it seems that somehow, so much has just dropped out. I was doing all this pretend stuff, seemed like doing a fairy tale. It felt like I was going backwards. It is true, maybe we will miss what the universe has for us if we make our plans too solid in our minds. Also with the world in so much chaos, people going in circles, world issues, people not helping the planet to heal. Makes me just want to be so selective and be as healthy as I can be and be as loving as i can be. Maybe there truely is nothing else. I am open to be guided to what I am to do here and to be with the people I am meant to be with. I really don't have to give it much thought.
When I wrote my X boyfriend who said, don't fuss with dinner: I said of course i will fuss, it is my creativity to play in the kitchen and share, that is why I have dinner parties, it brings me such joy. he wrote, You are something else, but I always knew that. Is there anything more I could want? to fulfill myself cooking with appreciation. I am radiant cleaning the house, setting the table, creating foods to share. I read today, we are not creative unless we are able to share it with others. love, Leila
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Registered: 03-30-2005
In reply to: leilade
Mon, 01-30-2006 - 11:24pm
Dear wandering Daughter the Father has something in store for you when you are ready to go home . some are ready to return home even to be servants in our Fathers house. Instead AThe Father welcomes you with a fine garmet and Has you sit at the dinner table with Him. May peace be upon and in you May you receive divine ideas and spiritual consciousnes in receiving new revelations of truth ,grasp the real import free from the restraints of religious habits of thoughts and worship from the established customs
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In reply to: leilade
Mon, 01-30-2006 - 11:32pm
Have aspiritual companion as needed. .......Ida M...the creature born o sex-force is not man, though having in him the potentialities of Being , and is the ground in which Creator works to grow his seed and to manifest the image and likeness of the Ideal. The Real Man is born, not of the will of the flesh ,nor of blood,nor of the will of man, but of God. This is to say that the operation of the laws of God in the organism of humanity brings forth spiritual being in their season of fulfilment, the will of the flesh being subjected to Divine Will at the appearing of Man . : This body is not a disembodied spirit nor ghost of shadowy form, but is the identification of the essences of substance as spiritual being. .......... trust that you remain dedicated........with love and service may the (these) realizations come upon and in you...
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Registered: 03-30-2005
In reply to: leilade
Mon, 01-30-2006 - 11:36pm
Looked at your photo again earlier today ...how precious and great treasure you are ..a very lovely Lady
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Mon, 01-30-2006 - 11:44pm
from Ida M...the creature born o sex-force is not man, though having in him the potentialities of Being , and is the ground in which Creator works to grow his seed and to manifest the image and likeness of the Ideal. The Real Man is born, not of the will of the flesh ,nor of blood,nor of the will of man, but of God. This is to say that the operation of the laws of God in the organism of humanity brings forth spiritual being in their season of fulfilment, the will of the flesh being subjected to Divine Will at the appearing of Man . the body of the Holy Ghost is characterized in Scripture it is the whole shadowy or outline of being. This body is not a disembodied spirit nor ghost of shadowy form, but is the identification of the essences of substance as spiritual being. .......... trust that you remain dedicated........with love and service may the (these) realizations come upon and in you..//////////////// in the mist of trouble you can be in
peace and joy./////Within you comes forth to my mind the precious one that you
are.do not accept yourself as in the past, Realize right now that you are a
great treasure(no pride)///Keep the excellent spirit of being a
child-son-daughter of the Most High///What you walk away from God will lead you
,(instruction).In which you will follow and determine the futhure you
create,(Holy Spirit guidance). In closing God will treat you better than you
will treat yourself written by ira krause/////////////Here and there....there is a blending of spirits and surrender of self. For the reality of LIFE the real self. Receive the peace and blessings now. Know and Be. Understanding and gain increased wisdom for wisdom and love united,enter the inner realm to receive and dispense. Life invites you again and again. from imperfect ____Ira_______ to imperfect ___Bink______
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Registered: 12-23-2003
In reply to: leilade
Tue, 01-31-2006 - 8:45pm
What an absolutely lovely attitude!