totally trust God

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totally trust God
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Mon, 02-13-2006 - 8:59pm
I started a post about trusting the universe. People thought that was really cool. Now I am wondering. all the trust that the people I am supposed to meet will be put in my path etc. Now that i am hibernating in the winter, no one is being put in my path. I have to relook at all this. Where does "do the leg work come in??????? " my therapist says, I am wilting in the house. I am forcing myself to do things, forcing myself and each time I do it I say, see God, I am a serious player, see that I am serious and help me to make my life more fun. Tonight I was the only one who showed up at the library for a history discussion. I left saying, See God, i am trying. Jeez, I am so used to the days of all the kids, family to cook for, big time dating years, training programs, so much busy-ness. I don't want the business, I want more of people connections. Amazing that I have to look for it when it was always there. I think I have to add leg work to the trust, if that becomes a pain, I'll go back to pure trust. The balance of life. I may also go back to ACIM, good way to connect with like minded people. Maybe God says, go do it yourself????????? What does God really say? Love, Leila

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Registered: 04-13-2003
In reply to: leilade
Tue, 02-14-2006 - 10:36am

Hallo Leila
I tried to send you an email, to answer the one you send to me, but it came back.
sooo, your retired? me too, but I don't know why you would be looking for people and something to do? I am sooo busy, have hardly time to relax!

I took some courses early last year now am practising it at a Centre, where people come to receive the treatment against a donation. Then I have my own patient.Also My old friend whom I meet once every two weeks.

Geez, the time is flying and the last time I saw my granddaughter was 4 weeks ago. for goodness sakes.. am running around sooo much, that one day a week, am taking the phone of the hook, don't look at the pc, at all the 'clubs' am a memmber off.. answer my snailmails and emails.

My sons? I hardly hear from theim. they have their business, their relationships/marriage and their daughter..

Once a week am still attending a course and having to squeeze in my homework for it..

If you don't know what to do? Look around? maybe there are some places, where you can volunteer and you WILL meet people! Let me tell you.. sometimes, too many as a matter of fact.

The universe is all around you.. Instead of looking what you can't find? the best thing issss.. to say, Praise God for the rest and quiet.. thank you for what I have today, for by the grace of god and the universe, I could be off worse!

No offense meant, but there was a time, when I couldn't work any longer, because of my health. I too went through psychotherapy, but quite and got on with what I had and before long, am now busier than blazes..

Don't expect from others to show up at places like the library!! Be glad that you were on your own and had that person's undefided attention and the opportunity to ask thousands of questions!

You can go for a walk everyday and LOOK, really look at nature and what do you mean? you are on your own? Aren't you enjoying your own SELF, your OWN company?! THE time to get to know en enjoy yourself presently.. No person is ever alone or lonely, Everybody is always in their own, most pleasant company!

Have to go, time is short at my end and after driving a half an hour because I forgot my cellphone at my teacher's home last night, I will be heading for the Reiki Centre, to give Reiki to those who come and have a need for..

By the time I get back home? I will have to prepare the food for my dog and cat and they do not come out of a can.. Then I will be having to do some laundry, make the bed, which has been airing all day.. prepare some letters, for my nieces, who are going to put their father to his last restingplace.
oh heck, have to run, keep up that lovely chin of you! keep tight! LOOK at what you DO have and the more you say "thank you" out loud? the more things will change..
Even the universe needs time to get its energy together!!
Or are you perhaps looking to hard?
greets and hugs from the old brush

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Registered: 04-22-2003
In reply to: leilade
Tue, 02-14-2006 - 10:52am

Leila, perhaps the message is "Look to yourself.


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Registered: 03-09-2001
In reply to: leilade
Tue, 02-14-2006 - 12:17pm

I think our lives, like our spirits, go through the four seasons. :) Winter is a time of lying "fallow," resting, refreshing, hibernating to recoup from the rest of the year. I cherish that sense of going deep within at this time of year, and feel in tune with Nature in doing so. Even in my younger years, working full-time, raising our DD, I still slowed down a lot during the winter time, physically and mentally and spiritually, and sought out personal renewal time, even if it was a snatched 15 minutes meditation at 4:30 a.m. before getting ready for work, LOL! :D I am always more thoughtful/contemplative at this time of year. Later, my body, even at this stage of my life, feels the quickenings of spring, summer and fall. The energy to want to move, do, be active. I like being able to feel the seasons as they affect my body, and it reminds me I am a child of the Universe. :P The Light is building within you during this hibernating time for Spirit, that is winter. It is, in the way I Iook at things, not the time for new beginnings, but for slowing down, recouping and learning from the past year's activities and experiences. The time of quickening energy and growing Light will open doors and windows the Universe wants you to experience, I think.

I also see an overall cycle of seasons that is my life...and now I am in the harvest time. And in another decade or two, I will be in the winter time of this reincarnation. So there are many cycles of energies that are dancing within me.

Sometimes it's hard to be patient, though, isn't it? ;))

Hugs,
Gypsy



Blessings,

Gypsy

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Registered: 01-31-2006
In reply to: leilade
Tue, 02-14-2006 - 12:27pm
Hi, Leila, I like your name!
I am new, posted here for the first time last night.
Anyway, I have a friend who always tells me to 'follow my passion, follow my joy'. That God sometimes guides us by our own excitement... He wants us to be happy, so our path is probably following what makes us happy. So instead of forcing yourself to go places, maybe go where you are really looking forward to going.
I know for myself, sometimes after intense study of spiritual material, I seem to have a hibernation time too! I think its natural, and perfectly ok. You know,, a time to sow and a time to reap.......after sowing the spiritual seeds they need to settle and then sprout, maybe this is such a time for you.
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Registered: 08-04-2004
In reply to: leilade
Tue, 02-14-2006 - 5:41pm
gypsy, i often feel inspired by your internal path. thank you for sharing.

 

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Registered: 08-04-2004
In reply to: leilade
Tue, 02-14-2006 - 5:44pm

welcome nikki, you share great wisdom. i too get anxious about my growth, what a great reminder; you have to wait for the seed to take hold.


thanks,


nancy

 

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Registered: 03-26-2003
In reply to: leilade
Tue, 02-14-2006 - 5:54pm
I am not being read correctly. I work 4 days a week in a very demanding job. We work straight thru lunch, eat as we go along. i love it. I have no intention to retire. I make greeting cards, play the piano, knit, adore cooking. I have lost a few friends as they met men and disappeared. I have no family close to me. My kids are busy in their lives. My last relationship was 3 1/2 years ago. I am not nuts for doing things alone, I hate the winter, i hate the cold. I hate ice. after getting in from work, working out, i am not dying to get out in the cold. I am forcing myself to make some more friends. Many people are busy with families, kids, full time work. I am feeling the difference in the transition of my life. Maybe I am not wording myself right. It is also harder to force myself to go certain places where it is mnoisy as I have a hearing problem. I don't expect things, it really us nmore humor that I was the only one there, like the time I went to a raw food cooking class and my aunt is seated next to me!!!!!!!!! I love to entertain, there are few people I know to fuss and cook for. I really excel in this. Love, Leila
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Registered: 03-26-2003
In reply to: leilade
Tue, 02-14-2006 - 5:55pm
Oh Bink, I do, I know myself really well. I spend lots of quiet time alone. Love, L
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Registered: 03-26-2003
In reply to: leilade
Tue, 02-14-2006 - 5:59pm
Yes, it is very hard esp since I am a summer time gal. I fade in the winter but my life and kids are here. I love New England but am happy being barefoot all the time outdoors. Yes, I wear shoes to work (:- ). The summer is reflective for me, I spend a lot of time on the rocks watching the waves. I am close to the ocean. All year is reflective time for me. Love, Leila
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Registered: 03-26-2003
In reply to: leilade
Tue, 02-14-2006 - 6:00pm
ditto, leila

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