totally trust God

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Registered: 03-26-2003
totally trust God
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Mon, 02-13-2006 - 8:59pm
I started a post about trusting the universe. People thought that was really cool. Now I am wondering. all the trust that the people I am supposed to meet will be put in my path etc. Now that i am hibernating in the winter, no one is being put in my path. I have to relook at all this. Where does "do the leg work come in??????? " my therapist says, I am wilting in the house. I am forcing myself to do things, forcing myself and each time I do it I say, see God, I am a serious player, see that I am serious and help me to make my life more fun. Tonight I was the only one who showed up at the library for a history discussion. I left saying, See God, i am trying. Jeez, I am so used to the days of all the kids, family to cook for, big time dating years, training programs, so much busy-ness. I don't want the business, I want more of people connections. Amazing that I have to look for it when it was always there. I think I have to add leg work to the trust, if that becomes a pain, I'll go back to pure trust. The balance of life. I may also go back to ACIM, good way to connect with like minded people. Maybe God says, go do it yourself????????? What does God really say? Love, Leila

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Registered: 03-26-2003
In reply to: leilade
Tue, 02-14-2006 - 6:12pm
Hi and welcome to the board. I am going places that I like, i force myself because once I am home, dark and cold and slippery, I don't venture out. When younger i went everywhere alone, Europe for one: jumped on a plane without a place to sleep at the other end. some strage lady in Paris helped me out!!!!!!! so what was easy then is not now, some things are been there done that. So I have stayed in and say the universe will put the right people in my life. Well, they also say, I have to make an effort. I have started businesses, was in my first dance recotal at 48, was on the Liza gibbons show, I sold pharmaceuticals etc etc been there and done that. Whatever I wanted to do, I did. There are not many stones left unturned. I had huge parties, I like small; ones now, sometimes i just have my neighbors in. I had a great time with my X man friend, dated 50 men since, none right for me. i'm in the middle, life transition, tryinf to work the spiritual with it. but not comfortable with it all and keep trying to find the missing link. Not trying like obcessive etc just need to take some control. Love, leila

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