How to live if no faith...

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How to live if no faith...
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Fri, 07-28-2006 - 7:33am
I have been a firm Catholic ever since little. That was my own choice, somehow I found a way to it since no one in my family went to church. It was nice in one way, so fulfilling being a part of that society and believing God loves me endlessly, he's always there to help and so on.
The other side of story was so much illogical belief like going to hell for one mortal sin and so on and so on...
Little by little, exploring and questioning, I came to a point where I stopped believing. Not just in Catholic church but in God himself. Better to say, seeing all the stuff in the world and problems that we all face, how there so much pain and hurt and no religion gave me answer why it all happens, I stopped believing God as in something magnificent, big, and endlessly loving.
Now I live empty, faithlessly, like a shell without nothing in it. This life ain't so pretty any more. Sure, everything goes well for me, but I feel deep inside that nothing fulfills me.
People, what experiences do you have?
How to regain my faith?
I miss believing that this whole life really has a purpose. I miss someone to have to follow. And above all I miss God.

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Sun, 07-30-2006 - 2:21pm
Do you "know" all that or just "believe" based on what you've heard from others?
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Sun, 07-30-2006 - 2:44pm

Hi Sunny

Yes, I am in direct contact with God, the information that I provided comes directly from
him. If you have any more questions, I will be more than happy to answer any questions.

God Bless
The Blessed Being
Jenn

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Sun, 07-30-2006 - 6:30pm
I know it from my own perceptions. Makes more sense than all I was taught. to me anyways. Love, Leila
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Mon, 07-31-2006 - 12:39am
Jen, can you like ask him personal questions that people would like to know about them? If I asked him through you something would he answer?
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Mon, 07-31-2006 - 9:56am

Hi Sunny,

Yes, he can answer your personal questions. If you want him to do this, I need you to e-mail me (privately) your first and last name, this way he can locate your soul, he would love to help. If you wish to talk to any one on the other side also include their name. It just makes things alot easier, and it is for accuracy purposes, for he will read your soul. Let me know if this is what you want to do, its free.

The Blessed Being
Jenn

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Mon, 07-31-2006 - 2:04pm

Hi I used to post on this board in the past and decided to lurk today and I saw your post...maybe a bit late???

And there was a time I felt empty too, I was raised in the christian faith, attended the compulsory religious classes as a kid...and I liked it because all my friends were going there, but very very early I felt disturbed by the teaching of the bible, and especially about what happens after death (the whole heaven and hell concept). At the age of 9 I felt more secure thinking and believing we were going to reincarnate somehow, and when i told the religious teacher about it I got scolded properly for having pagan view and that I should feel ashamed of this as god is not going to like it one bid...that was it! From then I started having a reach phobia of death and I was persuaded my familly was going to die if I were not by their side...I seriously turned into an obssecive conmpulive at one time calling my mom in office every 5 minutes to check if she was fine and go in totally panicky mode if she was 5 minutes late...going on holiday, was a nightmare as I was affraid of dying anytime. With time though the crazyness disappeared, but the fear of dying was still there until the age of 17 when I told myself...enough is enough...I spent month meditating trying to understand what was so horrible about death, and the fact is that shortly after that scolding I stopped having faith because I was affraid of being rejected by God for not believing in heaven and hell so i decided this evil punishing God could not exist...I grew up without faith but at that time my parents had a bit too much on their plate (divorce and all) so I couldn't talk and right after the divorce my mom said "God is a fairytale creature" and I decided to shut up about how I was feeling lost.

From the age of 17 to 20 I worked on myself to identify the problem and asked myself what i wanted to see happening after death...that reincarnation belief came back to the surface, and I then decided i could not live in a world without any God either, so I kind of built my own belief and now at age 27 I'm confortable about it. My belief are close to Hinduism...but I cannot consider myself hindu I prefer conforting myself in the faith I created than being classified as such and such and see any finger pointed at me if I do not conform fully.

I often compare faith to a pair of shoes, as kid we grow up wearing the shoes our parents think are good for us to walk on the path of life, so we are raised Chrisitan, muslim, Jewish, Buddhist or Hindu...then during teenagehood we start to rebel a little against what parents think is good for us and what we want to be...it's the same with faith sometimes. If one don't like the little black sandals mom and dad thought would be good...we have to look for the confortable pair to take us on the path of life on our unique Journey. Faith is as personnal as a pair of shoes and no one can tell : this pair fits you and is good for you...all they can say is "It looks good" but when you are going to walk miles and miles all your life...shoes that "look good" is not what matter, what matter is finding the right pair that helps you climp obstacles, and do not give you blisters, some feel ok wearing stiletos, other sneakers...but does that mean that stiletos are good and sneakers bad? Nope









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Mon, 07-31-2006 - 2:32pm
Your shoe analogy is just beautiful! Thanks for sharing that! And congratulations on your wedding!
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Mon, 07-31-2006 - 2:33pm

Welcome back Cynthia!

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Mon, 07-31-2006 - 2:53pm
Thanks Jenn. So I sent you an email to your adress, with my question(s)...
Waiting patiently for the answers... :)
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Mon, 07-31-2006 - 3:09pm

No it's never too late Cynthia :)

Our experiences somewhat interlace. I too often questioned things that were given to me to believe.
When I look at most of the religions I see many obscurities.
So the question is what to believe.
To be honest, the whole concept of reincarnation isn't persuasive. Why? Because if it were true, and many say it is, I don't see much of the logic in it because the whole concept of being born again to make the past lives mistakes right this time is weird. I myself don't remember any of my previous lives, so how can I make it right this time?
And further to that, if I am reborn over and over again, then it's not fair, then someone is playing with me because I, to be honest, don't like this life too much, in a way that there's a lot of pain, for me and for people around me, for people around the world. I only see people who make a lot of mistakes and most of us don't learn anything from them, let alone make them right.

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