my son's letter

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Registered: 03-26-2003
my son's letter
Sun, 12-17-2006 - 8:07pm
i won't even try to atempt to tell you about the letter. it wasn't good. I did one bad thing, pressed the resend button when I meant to write to my other son. I did say, " I don't know how he can live with her" ( my DIL) OK that was really bad. My other son says, he couldn't live with her, anyways. But that is our secret. I am seeing I am not as spiritul as i like to think I am. There were a lot of assumptions, like i cancelled many child visits, I never cancelled one. They assumed. they say it is a privelege to see grandkids and my son made it so wrong on me for so may things that I don't see how I can repair it. Esp with the holidays and surgery coming up. It will take some therapy and visits with my minister to even know what to do. I did tell her my hearing is such that I don't hear all she says, that was ignored. I can't deal with this until, until, I don't know when. I'll stay home christmas eve when they wanted to have it at their house, what my other 2 sons do is up to them, i don't want pressure on them to be with me. i just have to get thru this time and my ear surgery. Why does the universe do this????? Love, Leila