Lost My Faith!
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Lost My Faith!
| Wed, 01-03-2007 - 6:56pm |
My dh died on 12/24/2005 of a brain aneurysm suddenly and left me and six kids! It was horrible for all of us and my faith seems to have disappeared. Many told me God had a plan but could not see this without my dh. We were married for 24 years and best friends. I am praying here and there but cannot go back to church. My kids returned to youth group in February and know I should be in church with them. Am not really mad at God but guess I am frustrated. It has been very tough without my dh and do not see the good in this and kind of sick of being told there was a reason for it. Can anyone help me with this?



Thanks.
CO-CL to Stress and Women, Bereavement and Healing,
Good for you!
I am so sorry that this happened to you. I can relate. My husband died of pancreatic cancer on 1/11/97. It was on my oldest daughter's 13th birthday. We had been married almost 15 years. I was left with 5 children, the oldest was 13 and the youngest was 18 months. He was on ordained Catholic deacon. I attended 7 years of classes with him when he was in formation. When he died, I also stopped going to church. I wasn't mad at God but was mad at "someone". I was very confused. I stopped praying, too. Eventually, I found my way back to God but it took almost a year. God understands, afterall, He created us.
Give yourself time. You will find your path.
Hugs,
Lynne
I did have a spiritual base, not religion, but the base that we are all one, connected etc I knew when the stereo went on itself and shut off itself he did it etc
My girlfriend is a medium. I asked her if she could bring him in, she felt a different energy and said things from him. I wasn't sure it was him so I asked what i cooked for him that he liked the best. Decided to change the question, as I thought it wasn't fair to ask a spirit!!!!!!!!(:- ) I didn't say it out loud. I thought, what did you drink for breakfast? My girlfriend said, " tea" he was a tea drinker. I know he is around and that it was him.
Even though I had the beliefs, I cried a lot, felt empty, froze, wore his long undrwear and curled up next to the base board heaters with a blanket over my head, heat turned way up amd still froze. I cried at work and hated to come home to am empty house. Woud you believe I have had 2 boy friends since. Life goes on and on with all our emotions, people coming and going. Nothing stays the same. I do understand, what can we do but go thru the process with love from others until we can stand a little stronger, eventually we feel whole. Love, Leila
God never stops loving us, no matter what we are doing, because God is Love. I know that God loves you, the children, and your husband, without any conditons. I know that this love includes all the comfort, understanding, and supply of your practical needs.
Just knowing this each day has really helped me through difficult and confusing times. I am grateful to know that God, Love is right where you are, and will never leave your side. Even if you are not feeling this now I know that you will because God has always come through for me even when I couldn't feel love at all for a time.
I have often found encouragement and help from the articles on the websight spirituality.com -- Perhaps you could find some comfort there, too.
Many warm regards to you and your children,
Janet
I am sorry about your dh!
CO-CL to Stress and Women, Bereavement and Healing,
Sorry you had to go through so much along with the loss of your dh!
CO-CL to Stress and Women, Bereavement and Healing,
I remember doing that with his clothes. I sold the house after 2 years because the neighborhood was going down hill and because of the memories. My oldest daughter was my biggest help.
When to start dating...hmmm...I think I waited 8 years before I started dating. Take your time. Whenever you're ready. I remember my youngest kids asking me when they'd get a new daddy. That just about broke my heart. I'd tell them to ask God since He's in charge. I am dating now and really like the guy but I don't know if I'd ever be ready for marriage again.
Take it one day at a time.
Hugs