Some rambling thoughts...

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Some rambling thoughts...
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Sat, 01-27-2007 - 3:26pm

It's been a difficult winter for me spiritually; I've been spending a lot of time going within, really questioning myself, and not finding many answers.  So I thought I'd share a bit of where I'm at lately...


Ever since The DaVinci Code came out, I've found myself fascinated with religious history.  I can't seem to get enough of that whole genre of books, both fiction and non-fiction.  More and more though, I've found myself unsettled, questioning everything including the nature and existance of 'God.'  I was shocked a few weeks ago to realize I'm not even sure anymore whether I believe there is a God.  And as I thought more about it, it dawned on me that what I was really looking for was comfort.  I wanted there to be a God because I don't like the idea that I'm alone, with no one watching out for me. 


Then the other day I read a passage in Simple Abundance about blessing your circumstances.  No matter how down and out things appear to be, bless them and see the good.  That threw me.  My entire faith is completely shattered and I'm supposed to bless that?  How???  It took a couple days, but then it dawned on me that I'm right in the position of early man as they developed their own concepts of Divinity and built religions from scratch.  That was a pretty heady idea for me.


So anyway, I'm kind of grasping for some sort of handhold at this point, and the only thing I'm really solidly sure about is the passage of time, the continuation of life itself.  And if that's all I've got, I'd best find a way to celebrate and honor it. 


 






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Fri, 02-02-2007 - 5:45pm
I have not read the other posts. I have been where you are for many years of my life. When my youngest son got sick ( OK now) I was thrown. I found answers to prayer and was open to the universal answers and saw there was something.
I only used these spiritual means due to pain. to me God is in all things so you, to me, my dear, are part God. The biggie God, is the highest energy form of love and what ever it is. Too big to know. Your spirit guides are always with you, and this God energy, whatever it is. you are never alone. Maybe let it go, meditate and let the answers come.
Love, leila
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Fri, 02-02-2007 - 9:52pm

The science and history are what fascinate me as well.

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Fri, 02-02-2007 - 9:56pm

The biggie God, is the highest energy form of love and what ever it is. Too big to know.


I've always believed the same thing... that our little human minds, trapped as they are in a material world, are incapable of fully comprehending the vastness of that Divine Energy.


Your spirit guides are always with you,


This part I have more trouble with... I don't have any conscious relationship with any spirit guides.

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Sat, 02-03-2007 - 10:36am
My girlfriend is kind of like a medium, she is " MS Telepathic" and flies over the ouija board. My master spirit guide is Krinel. We found that out on the board. He has a sense of humor. I was thinking of calling a guy, bruce, about xango. A car goes by with the name Bruce on the plate. Krinel does these things. I just laugh. I have the names of all my guides, my reiki guide also ( Rateer) Just be open, don't worry about it. It's their job to guide you or try to plant a thought in your head. Talk to them and see if anything happens. love, Leila

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