It won't be long...she's talkin rainbows
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| Tue, 02-06-2007 - 1:02pm |
A relative - sort of distant - is dying of a blood cancer. She's sooooooo sweet.
She's about skin & bones now. She's been surrounded by friends/family & visitors for many days now. Twice they've thought she was going, but she hasn't. We're pretty sure she's waiting on her sister & not sure her ailing sister will be able to get there.
She's gone over her funeral plans. But the NEATEST thing is: She's been saying for days now how brilliant the rainbows are over there. She says there are many people looking at her, waving white handkerchiefs. She says the lights are pretty. She says she's talking to people over there, including some of the ones we all know.
This is hard, but comforting at the same time. Hospice says she could go on for days n days like this, but she's hardly drinking & eating. Her kidneys keep wanting to quit.
She is 3 hours away & we have to fight lots of traffic to get to her. My 8 yo daughter is a favorite of hers. She's asked about her a couple of times. Prob is my dd is in school now & we have many commitments thru Saturday. Who knows, she may be around on Sunday still. I feel sorta bad. I thought I'd have my dd send her a special card w/a photo of her. Of course, it may not make it.
I guess I'd just like to talk with others who've been thru such a slow loss.....and perhaps have heard some things similar to what she's talking about. I like to think it's Heaven ---- but the realistic side of me also wonders if it's a chemical hallucination most all of us will go thru someday..........

(((Hugs!!)))
My younger sister's best friend died at fourteen years old of bone cancer. It was a very slow process, with several misdiagnosies before the chemo was started. It was pretty clear from the beginning she wouldn't make it. She was a beautiful, sweet child, and she often spoke of her grandmother, who had passed, talking to her, and told us many times of the angels we had surrounding us. This girl had her last birthday in the hospital. She told us all she'd watch over us. She eventually died peacefully, at home, when she was ready. Only when she was ready.
Do any of the people near this relative have access to the net? Maybe you can send some pics via email, or have your dd speak to her over the phone, there's several options this day and age. Good luck getting to see her, and remember that these feelings and visuals give her hope- don't be afraid to let them give you hope, too. She's closer to that side than many of us will be for a long time.
The neat thing is she keeps asking for my youngest daughter....... and my youngest is very creative & very in tune to color.
I don't know that we'll be able to see her before she goes, so.....
We sent her some rainbow colored flowers - they may have done daisies - in a basket a couple of days ago. The card - it was from all of us - but said "Tell Me About the Rainbows...." with Caroline's name first.
I also had her make a card & I sent a photo of her. Caroline wrote "I see rainbows, too!"
I hope she took it all well. (can't believe she's been hanging on for at least 10 days right on the edge.....)
If she is not eating etc it won't be long. She needs fluids. nice thought about the way you handled the cards etc. think good thoughts. Love, Leila