When your path takes a "bad" turn
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| Sun, 04-29-2007 - 12:02pm |
You're going along, and life is good. You have family and friends you love and enjoy spending time with. Your job is satisfying and your coworkers supportive. Your spiritual life is peaceful and nurturing...
Then up ahead on your path you see a turn into a darker place. It's not certain you have to go that way yet, but it's very possible you will. Life as you know it will change. You won't be able to do your job, your financial situation will take a drastic down-turn, and the rest of your journey will be dark. Friends and family will still be there to help, but you will have to rely on others like never before.
I am looking ahead to this and do not want to go. Anyone ever been there, standing on your path and not wanting to go where it leads?
Bink
Not really into Siggees...
Not all who wander are lost.
(J.R.R. Tolkien)

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Hi Barb,
That's exactly where I've been and just easing my way out. My approach was to bite the bullet as I know this dark detour is inevitable, and will eventually pass. I have come out stronger, it forced me to ground myself. But still lost. And a little shaken. I try to think of it as a turning point, and an opportunity for improvement and new approaches.
Just remember not to take anything too personally. Bad things happen to good people due to uncontrollable external factors. Remain open and flexible.
It all sounds cliche but it's proven cliche.
My sympathies.
-gnd-
My path some years ago now, led to unemployability due to major hearing loss. My identity had always been in my work. I have felt purposeless. To lose that identity pulled the rug out from under me emotionally and psychologically. I have been heavily depressed for some years now, sometimes to the point of being incapacitated. What gets me out of bed is my Mika dog and my DH & DD.
Now that I'm 60, I fear loss of mental functioning, loss of physical mobility and health. I fear loss of financial stability, and I fear having to live in an institution because we can no longer care for ourselves. I fear the same for DH. Do we have the courage to face this last awful challenge -- growing old and decrepit? Gradually losing our minds and our bodies? That is what I think about now.
That I am here is a testament to my DH, DD & Mika. And to my Goddess and God. They are teaching me how nature's seasons also operate within my own body and my life. I am still fearful of what is to come, but I know each of us must face it, and I feel Their presence walking with me most of the time. I just have to turn my mind toward Them. They have sent me help in the form of my Pagan Circle and the UU church.
So, I try to seek balance between the Yin and Yang. The Light and the Dark. Find courage and hope that I gave up on long ago. And live one day at a time. And find some joy and meaning in each moment. To accept the "good" days and the "bad" days with more equanimity, that I still have value as a human being, reflected in the eyes of family and friends and my Mika.
Hugs and tears,
Gypsy
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Blessings,
Gypsy
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Welcome, betterme!
Good to see you, Leila. Missed you! :)
Thanks for the input. My insurance and the audiologist say I'm not eligible yet for an implant. As long as they say I haven't lost enough of my hearing, *I* have to pay 100% out of pocket for hearing aids. The insurance co. has to pay for the implants because it's surgery, so they make people wait as long as possible.
My friend with one still cannot hear on a regular telephone and has had her implant for years. She still needs her TTY or the IP-Relay service thru her Blackberry or her computer. Fortunately her job is providing assistance in an apt. complex for the deaf and severly hard of hearing, as many need housing assistance because they are under employed or unemployed and older. So of course, the equipment is deaf and hard of hearing friendly. No "regular" telephones there in that office. ;)
Gypsy
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Blessings,
Gypsy
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I have no choice of hospitals. The insurance we have is all-inclusive, has it's own hospital, labs, pharmacies. It's through DH's employer. It's good coverage, but it's a "closed system."
Gypsy
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Blessings,
Gypsy
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