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| Mon, 07-02-2007 - 12:18am |
Hi everyone. I hope you can help me out a bit. As a child, I went to Sunday School and was taught religion in school. I grew up learning about this and have carried it to this day as my belief and my spirituality. I remember asking when I was younger what religion we were considered, and I was told it was Protestant.
Anyways, I've always had a sense of spirituality about me, and I always believed what I was taught. I was recently faced with some hard times, and I decided it was time for a change, and I needed to ask for help. In return, my goal was to be a better person on my own terms, or do what I felt was necessary to be the best I could be.
The thing is, I'm so confused. For me, being a better person was to omit any anger or resentment I had towards past events in my life. It also meant that I would meet each day with happiness, and treat others around me with respect. I would be happier and more outgoing towards people, and just be positive and upbeat when talking to others. Before all this, I was kind of withdrawn and unhappy, and wasn't really being the best I could be. However, sometimes I feel as though I'm not doing enough. I feel as though I'm not living up to the standards I should be living up to. I still feel as though I'm a bad person and I will be punished because I am not doing as much as I should.
Every time I talk to people now or do things, I feel so much lighter and happier. Whenever I'm faced with a situation, I pray that I have the strength to work through it, and I instantly feel relieved. I am just a happier person in general. I was able to forgive someone for something terrible they did to me, and it was like a ton of bricks was lifted off my shoulders. But the problem is I feel as though I'm not good enough doing what I'm doing, especially when I hear that some people do things I don't, or vice versa.
Can you help?
Thank you.

Welcome, stargazingrl!
Elise
IMGsrc="http://www.fertilityfriend.com/ticker/1bb1f6/ttc.png"border=0>I say fake it until you make it. Pretend you're good enough and pretty soon you'll start believing it.
Congratulation though for changing your life like that. That's so terrific!!
Just my 2¢
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