burned out, no relief in sight
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|Mon, 07-12-2010 - 7:48pm|
Hi I'm trying to find help wherever I can get it. I feel very burned out lately. I haven't been on a real vacation for about 8 years. Since I started my current job about 2 years ago, I haven't taken any time off except holidays. I feel I need a vacation and chance to reboot BADLY- I can't focus at work, my sleep patterns are all screwed up leading to screwing up my work out patterns (i.e. I'm not getting up and going!), my house is a mess, I'm all disorganized-- I need a change of scenery, I need to do something for myself.
However, I have less than no money. Despite how much I work, I don't make enough money in this job to afford to pay my student loan payments, rent, and other bills so now in my 30s, for the first time I am relying on my family to help cover the cost of necessities. It's a sort of "do-gooder" job where most of the employees are independently wealthy and don't really seem to need their full-time job to make ends meet. My coworkers go on expensive vacations and do fun things all the time, but I'm there in the office, day in and day out. Basically, I don't have a dime to go anywhere.
But taking a staycation doesn't appeal to me. I worry that I'll get more stressed out staying in my house alone with nothing to do. I'll probably be focused on doing housework and errands and working out, which won't help me relax. Plus, since I can't take time off for another several weeks due to the project I'm working on, what I really want out of a vacation is something to look forward to, and the prospect of a staycation just won't cut it.
I don't know what to do. This is affecting my work and my health. But I see no relief in sight. I can't see myself having enough money to do anything as long as I'm in this job, and for other reasons it's not wise for me to leave this job for another year or so. I'm at the end of my rope. Does anyone have any ideas for ways I can somehow take a "free" vacation (I don't like camping alone, and I don't have equipment so it wouldn't be free anyway). Otherwise, I need away to get through this and plug through for another few years. I need help!