Just feeling anxious and alone
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Just feeling anxious and alone
| Fri, 08-06-2004 - 11:35pm |
I'm just having a really hard night, and I wanted to post here because sometimes it helps me not to hurt myself when I post on these boards. My problem is this: I have to take my driver's test tomorrow, and I am extremely nervous. Yes, I'm twenty, and I still don't have a driver's license. I've already failed the road test twice, so this will be my third time. I've been so worried about the test all week, and I'm so afraid that if I fail it again, I'll have to worry about it more. I just want to pass it and get it over with! I'm just sitting here tonight thinking about how much I want to die, and it's because of being nervous over a silly driver's exam. I know that it's not logical and that it's irrational, but it's how I feel. I wrote a list of worse or as bad days that I've gotten through in the past tonight in my on-line journal in an attempt to make myself feel better, and it did work somewhat. I think that I'll go back and read over them in a little while. I just keep telling myself that if I could get through Those Days, I can get through Tomorrow. I just wish that I could stop obsessing over how much I want to just die.

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Meghan
I'm glad you came here to talk about being anxious about tomorrow. You mentioned that you've taken the road test before...would you feel comfortable talking to the person who does the road test BEFORE you get in the car? Explain that you are nervous (you don't need to say anything about having not passed before), but just saying how important this test is to you and that you've been anxious about it? I think you're going to do really well!
I will say a prayer for you and I'll send you good thoughts. Good Luck!
Have a good weekend, too.
jadaf4
Hey Stardoll,
Thanks for sharing your story with me, too. It definitely helps to know that there are other intelligent, perfectly normal women who are still in the process of getting their driver's licenses. What you said about development makes a lot of sense, too, and to be honest, it also gives me a great sense of relief. So what if society thinks that I should have gotten my driver's license at sixteen? I wasn't ready then. And maybe I'm not quite ready now, but I think that I will be soon. All that I can do is try again!
Hey Star,
I'll talk to my doctor about something to calm me down, but I'm not sure if he'll give me anything because I'm already taking 20 mg of Prozac daily. That's been helping a bit. I just started taking it about a week or so ago, and sometimes they say that it takes a few weeks to work, though.
Anyway, thanks so much for sharing with me! I love talking to you, and I'll definitely keep you posted!!
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