Just feeling anxious and alone

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Registered: 07-24-2004
Just feeling anxious and alone
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Fri, 08-06-2004 - 11:35pm
I'm just having a really hard night, and I wanted to post here because sometimes it helps me not to hurt myself when I post on these boards. My problem is this: I have to take my driver's test tomorrow, and I am extremely nervous. Yes, I'm twenty, and I still don't have a driver's license. I've already failed the road test twice, so this will be my third time. I've been so worried about the test all week, and I'm so afraid that if I fail it again, I'll have to worry about it more. I just want to pass it and get it over with! I'm just sitting here tonight thinking about how much I want to die, and it's because of being nervous over a silly driver's exam. I know that it's not logical and that it's irrational, but it's how I feel. I wrote a list of worse or as bad days that I've gotten through in the past tonight in my on-line journal in an attempt to make myself feel better, and it did work somewhat. I think that I'll go back and read over them in a little while. I just keep telling myself that if I could get through Those Days, I can get through Tomorrow. I just wish that I could stop obsessing over how much I want to just die.

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Registered: 06-09-2004
Sat, 08-07-2004 - 12:37am
I know that you must be nervous about tomorrow, but you are going to do great! I will say a prayer for you, but you must think positive thoughts and repeat to yourself..."Yes, I can do this. yes, I will pass this test". Please let us know how it goes.

Meghan
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Registered: 08-06-2004
Sat, 08-07-2004 - 4:26am
Hi, Stardoll84:

I'm glad you came here to talk about being anxious about tomorrow. You mentioned that you've taken the road test before...would you feel comfortable talking to the person who does the road test BEFORE you get in the car? Explain that you are nervous (you don't need to say anything about having not passed before), but just saying how important this test is to you and that you've been anxious about it? I think you're going to do really well!

I will say a prayer for you and I'll send you good thoughts. Good Luck!

Have a good weekend, too.

jadaf4

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Sat, 08-07-2004 - 11:38am

Hey Stardoll,


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Sat, 08-07-2004 - 11:54am
does it help you to know that i was 36 years old b/fore i got my liscence?& how many x i had to take the test?i did the same thing lori did,earlier i had failed & then gave up the whole thing.even AFTER i passed it was another year or 2 b/fore i drove at all! (believeme few people pass the 1st time...)give yourself CREDIT for keeping it up till you pass....its dishearteningi know & its so normal to be anxious.you will be fine!
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Sat, 08-07-2004 - 10:58pm
Thanks so much for your kindness and compassion. I didn't pass my test today because I messed up on the parallel parking, and I felt pretty badly about it at first. I came home, though, and went to bed for a couple of hours and just slept off the disappointment instead of hurting myself. That helped a lot. I'm still a little disappointed, but I'm feeling okay right now. Like you said, it's not the end of the world.

Thanks for sharing your story with me, too. It definitely helps to know that there are other intelligent, perfectly normal women who are still in the process of getting their driver's licenses. What you said about development makes a lot of sense, too, and to be honest, it also gives me a great sense of relief. So what if society thinks that I should have gotten my driver's license at sixteen? I wasn't ready then. And maybe I'm not quite ready now, but I think that I will be soon. All that I can do is try again!

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Sat, 08-07-2004 - 11:04pm
Thanks for sharing your story and your experiences with me. It definitely does help to know that other women out there are still in the process of getting their driver's license, or took longer than society thought that they should have to get it. I just keep reminding myself that it doesn't make me any less of a person not to have a driver's license. Thanks again for your kindess and support! I definitely appreciate your words of wisdom!
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Sat, 08-07-2004 - 11:07pm
Well, I didn't pass it this time, but there's always next time, right?? Thanks for your kind words!
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Sat, 08-07-2004 - 11:10pm
Thanks for your advice! I didn't pass the test this time, but there's always next time, right?? I did admit to the instructor that I was very nervous, and he told my parents after I failed the test that he could tell I was really nervous.
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Sun, 08-08-2004 - 1:42pm

Hey Star,


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Mon, 08-09-2004 - 1:55pm
Thanks so much for the encouragement. I'm sorry that it took me so long to write back. I had to work a long day yesterday, and then I had to work again for a while today. I like to sleep in bed with the dogs when I am feeling sad or alone because they are very warm and comforting to have near, so I may go take a nap soon.

I'll talk to my doctor about something to calm me down, but I'm not sure if he'll give me anything because I'm already taking 20 mg of Prozac daily. That's been helping a bit. I just started taking it about a week or so ago, and sometimes they say that it takes a few weeks to work, though.

Anyway, thanks so much for sharing with me! I love talking to you, and I'll definitely keep you posted!!

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