Roll Call Time!

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Roll Call Time!
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Mon, 10-04-2004 - 8:44pm

Hey everyone!


 The board has been quiet lately... Hope everyone is doing well. How about taking a moment to let us know? Share the good, the bad and/or the ugly--lol!! Hugs, Lori

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Tue, 10-05-2004 - 7:52pm
Hi & Hugs to everyone! and Welcome to all the new people!

I'm so sorry I haven't been here for a while. I'm taking a Statistics course and it really requires so much time, as do all my son's extra-curricular activities. My DH has classes pretty much from morning through late night, so I'm trying to do most of everything. I just passed my birthday over the weekend and YUK! 40 is lousy!

My other thing is, since I started this course (which is my last requirement to get into grad school and make the dream of my life happen) I have had nearly constant migraines and daily panic attacks. I'm already on enough meds to kill a horse...so I don't hold out much hope that more meds would help. I've had this happen before. The thing is, it scares me, it feels like I'm dying. So I spiral downward. I'm so hurt that I'm just so mentally sick and weak, that I may not be able to make my one dream come true. I'm still trying and studying hard, but my body's reaction is something I hate. I feel mentally tough enough...but then I get bizarre bodily stress reactions. I have tried everything, seen dozens of doctors when this happened before... there's never really been a good answer.

Well, that's where I'm at and why I haven't been here. I don't want to just show up and whine (which I just did, ha ha).

I hope you all are hanging in there. Safe hugs to all,

Emily

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Wed, 10-06-2004 - 9:14am
I'm still here. Life has been pretty crazy. My youngest dd (age 5.5) broke her arm 10 days ago, had to be put under to have it set and casted. 2 days after that she came down with strep throat. So she is finally at school for her second full day in over a week. Dh is totally frustrated and fed up with me. Says he can't take it any more and that he thinks we've hit the end of the road and it's time to go separate ways. He says this stuff on sunday, and hasn't said anything else since so have no idea where his thinking is now. He thinks that just because I don't want to be touched sexually,that I don't love him. Trying to explain things to him just doesn't work. Asking him to deal with some of his own issues and helping me some, isn't going very far. I'm having some major mixed thoughts about it all. Am just sitting back tho right now and waiting to see what he does next. I'm tired of being the one that tries to make things better and trying to get him to feel better etc. So life is just continueing down the crappy path. But I'm still here.

Sandra.

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Wed, 10-06-2004 - 3:31pm

Heyyyyy Emily, I've missed you, too!! Glad to see you posting--although I understand totally how time consuming school can be!! You're taking Stats?? I sure don't envy you there, hon!! I absolutely HATED that class--math is NOT my strong point and out of ALL my classes thru 2 degrees, that was the ONLY one I got a "C" in! It was awful!


I have to say I am proud of you for

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Thu, 10-07-2004 - 12:49pm

Heyyy Sandra, glad you could stop in and let us know what is going on--I've wondered how things were going!


So sorry to hear about your little girl--poor baby, I hope she's feeling MUCH better now!!! I have a 5 yr. old nephew and I just HATE seeing him hurt (or ANY kids for that matter) so I can imagine it must have been hard on you all.


Wow, things sure sound as if they haven't improved much with dh. Has he said anymore since his comment the other day? Either way, I think it's important for you to remember that just as it takes TWO to MAKE a marriage it also involves TWO when it isn't working!! What do YOU want to happen?? How do YOU feel about this?? In some cases, both parties have truly given it their best and it just isn't working and so they find separating almost a relief. But when one or the other still holds out hope and is working so hard AND has strong feelings of love, then it can be a pretty painful time! Even if the marriage is TOTALLY unfulfilling to you in many ways, your feelings may be mixed. I mean, he is the father of your children, and you and he have been together for so long it is familiar at the very least.


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Thu, 10-07-2004 - 7:27pm
Hello,,,hoping everyone is doing the best they are able to right now. I'm still here,,,just don't post often,,,but I do come and read ( hope that is alright ) I'm kind of down again,,,besides dealing with the 'usual' things that pull me down

I've just recently been diagnosed with very high blood pressure and am now going through a bunch of tests to check for reasons and for damage. They don't know why I have it,,,I don't smoke and weigh 117lbs which the doctor said usually contributes to having it. Personally I think 'stress' may play a lot in all of this,,doctor says 'don't get upset about things!',,,and I had to laugh outloud at that request. But I'll have to see what the results say. So now I'm on meds for this too. Anyway sorry,,,I think I'm complaining.

Did just want to say that I'm sorry if I don't respond to people's posts,,,it makes me look like I don't care and that is far from the truth. I sometimes just have trouble knowing what to say without sounding stupid. I read every word with compassion and truly feel so sad when someone is struggling and hurting. I just wanted to say that please,,,,thank you.

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Fri, 10-08-2004 - 12:22pm

Hi there and glad you stopped by to say hi!! Reading is fine, too so don't worry about that!!


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