How 'bout a Roll Call?
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How 'bout a Roll Call?
| Wed, 11-03-2004 - 8:33am |
Hey all,
It's been kinda quiet here lately and I'm wondering if everyone who reads this would take a moment and let us know: your name, the state you live in IF you'd like to share that, and how things are going with you. ANYONE is welcome to post their response...regular members, "newbies" and those who are just passing thru and have not yet posted here but read on occasion.
Let's see......how's Emily, Keli, Sandra, Mary, Michelle, pboyd, Jessica, Laura, etc, etc, etc, (Sorry if I've left any specific names out--didn't mean to!). Come on by and say hello everyone! Hugs, Lori


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Sandra, from ohio (and don't be blaming me for the election either because I didn't vote and 1 vote from me wouldn't have changed it either). I am feeling more and more like I would be gone IF it weren't for my kids. I am feeling so awful for thinking that I could be a decent person by having kids and do the right thing for them. The only thing that keeps me alive now is the thought of my girls and how I would miss them so terribly much if I did die (but you know, I'm also scared that I'll never get to the point where it will be ok to leave them either, eventually life will be over for me). Such a double edge sword. I am sick of myself and of my life (other than the girls). I feel like I will never get out of myself enough to make my life seem worthwhile. This battle has gone on way too long as it is (I'm 38 years old, the past 20 years of it has been like this {10 of those years, I did actively try to do away with myself}. Here I am attempting to try to be a decent mom for my girls while being the person that I am. I'm tired. Ok, I'll quit whining. I'm still amongst the living. Hope everyone else is doing ok and finding their way out of these pits we find ourselves in.
Sandra.
Hey Michelle,
Anyway,,,sorry to sound so dismal,,,I hope you are enjoying your visit to Canada,,,and hoping that you here for positive reasons. Take care to all,,,bye :)
I've been doing really really well. I'm on a new medicine, Cymbalta...the newly released, more potent anti depressant and its been my miracle drug. I still have my days where I'm a little blah feeling, but my depression has lifted and I am VERY thankful for that. I'm back at work full time and productive and happy. My dh's father is on life support and I'm not sure how much longer he's going to be around. My dh is not handling it at all, not facing it, ignoring it really. Won't face his family at all...so I'm trying to help him deal with it, but all I can do is just be there for him.
I just want you all to know that HOPE and HELP is out there...PLEASE do NOT give up. I wanted to give up so many times, SO BADLY. But I fought and fought and fought...on days that I just wanted to lay down and die...and I made it through, with the help of this board, my friends online (the only true ones I have) my pdoc, and God.
I'm here for anyone who needs me. Its tough, but we can all make it, TOGETHER.
Love and Hugs,
Keli
Honey, hang on as hard as you can...for your girls...they need you so much...find anything you can to hold on to and HOLD ON...I fought a battle with Bipolar disorder for the last three years, hospitalized 4 times...and just recently did i start getting better...I had to go off ALL my meds and start completely over and FINALLY did they find the right med for me...JUST as I was giving up...I am so totally thankful and grateful that I didn't. I feel good again and I'm fighting...I will have to fight this disorder for the rest of my life, but I know now that I can do it...I will have my lowest of lows...even on meds...but they will pass...and I have the strength to get through them...I had to almost die to realize that I wanted to live...I want to see my son finish high school, get married if he chooses to do so...I want to continue to come to work every day, talk to my friends, watch movies, read books...I want to live. I almost didn't make it, but got another chance. Life is short and we can't take a single moment for granted. PLEASE HANG ON sweety...I know its tough...but you can make it, I know you can...
Are you on meds, in therapy, or have a doctor? If you want to talk, I'm here.
Love,
Keli
Hugs!!!
Keli
Hi there and thanks for taking the time to post and let us know you are still here at the board with us---glad to hear it!
Sorry things are so dismal with the job interview and especially sorry to hear about the death in your family. Grieving and loss are such difficult things to go through so please remember to seek support as much as you need to, okay?
Heyyy Keli,
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