How 'bout a Roll Call?

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Registered: 02-12-2004
How 'bout a Roll Call?
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Wed, 11-03-2004 - 8:33am

Hey all,


It's been kinda quiet here lately and I'm wondering if everyone who reads this would take a moment and let us know: your name, the state you live in IF you'd like to share that, and how things are going with you. ANYONE is welcome to post their response...regular members, "newbies" and those who are just passing thru and have not yet posted here but read on occasion.


Let's see......how's Emily, Keli, Sandra, Mary, Michelle, pboyd, Jessica, Laura, etc, etc, etc, (Sorry if I've left any specific names out--didn't mean to!). Come on by and say hello everyone! Hugs, Lori

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Registered: 10-17-2003
Fri, 11-12-2004 - 4:05pm
Thanks Lori ~

It was such a shock because I had no warning...when I asked why they said they didn~t have to give me an explanation other than that they found me "unsuitable" for them...I~ve had no prior problems with them, no verbal warnings, or even a decent notice...my employment was terminated on the spot! How unfair. The cheque they gave me wasn~t including my last week~s wages and not the bonus money that I am definately entitled to. I~m seeking free legal advice next week...

How are YOU Lori? I hear it~s getting quite cold in Ontario! Brrrrrr!!!!

HUGS

Faith

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Registered: 03-27-2003
Fri, 11-12-2004 - 6:03pm
Hi, everyone...hope you all are hanging in there.

Rose here, 24...had a few weeks of feeling great (which is very rare for me), but recently I "crashed" again and am not doing well. Trying to hang in there, though... forcing myself to eat, etc...but my schoolwork is definitely going by the wayside.

I saw my psychiatrist today (I've only seen her twice before), and she seems to do more therapy than meds (which is OK with me since I'm not sure that trying the few meds I haven't tried would help at this point...she does work with meds as well, though). Her conclusion at the end of the session today was that I have trouble expressing or feeling anger and turn it inwards...and that I probably still have big issues with feeling like the "second-best" in my family, issues that I need to deal with.

I've been through so many years of therapy, have gone through my past (although not so much my issues of comparing myself to my sister)...I don't think I can (or want to) deal with the pain of the past again in order to try to overcome it. I asked the doctor if she considered it healthy to "rehash" the past like that (and other therapists have suggested the same problem with my lack of anger, so I feel like I've kind of already dealt with it)...and she said she thought that what I'm doing now is very unhealthy, so I have to deal with the issues somehow.

Oh well, sorry to go off on a tangent...there are a lot of other things going on too, of course...feeling sick and exhausted this week after two migraines and a virus... questioning (and having the psychiatrist question) whether going to med school is right for me (she said she thought it was dangerous for me to feel like there is no other option...since I really feel that way).

And the social situation here is still bad, although I've been trying to be friendly and have had some small-talk type conversations with a variety of people. But based on what I see and hear, I honestly believe that the people around me would much rather that I not exist. They might not admit to that, but I feel sure that it's true. I've realized that I've spent a lot of my life trying to be invisible (maybe that's one reason I've started eating only very little again)...and maybe this is why...the more people get to know me, the more they dislike me.

OK, wow, guess this was my attempt to see how many examples of black-and-white thinking and jumping-to-conclusions that I could fit in one post! Sorry...I guess I do recognize the thought patterns I have...but that still doesn't seem to help me change them much. Sorry to put all this in the roll call too...I know others are going through much more major issues...really I'd just planned to say hi...but thank you all for listening, and I hope you are doing all right.

Rose

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