Skipping lunch

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Registered: 11-15-2004
Skipping lunch
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Mon, 11-29-2004 - 12:16pm
I'm back at college after Thanksgiving break. I have my really accurate digital scale here, and I just weighed myself. I wish that I hadn't done it because now I feel horrible. I'm skipping lunch, and just drinking diet Coke because I'm so tired and I need some energy. I'm just so angry at myself. I don't know how I'm going to make it through the day. I really need some diet pills, but I don't have any way to get them today. I tried to get some at Tops last night, but they didn't have the kind I wanted, and it was the middle of the night, so I didn't want to go to Wal*Mart, too. I think that I might be able to get a friend to take me to Wal*Mart tomorrow to get me some. I know that I'm probably not making sense, but I'm just so tired of not being thin. I guess that I just needed to vent. Thanks for listening!
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Registered: 02-12-2004
In reply to: pinkstar84
Mon, 11-29-2004 - 12:41pm

Hi Pinkstar and welcome to our board! I hope you'll hang around and get to know us a bit and share more of yourself!


What are you studying in college? Are you finding it hard to get back into the swing of things after the holiday break? I know I usually did when I attended--lol!


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Registered: 11-15-2004
In reply to: pinkstar84
Mon, 11-29-2004 - 12:54pm

I don't have an eating disorder. I'm too fat to have one. I'm 5'8" and my weight fluctuates between 130 and 135 lbs. I want to lose about 30 lbs or so because I think that I would look good very thin. I have a small frame, and I have way too much weight on it right now.

I took diet pills on and off through high school. I haven't had them in a while. I really need them again. They don't sell the ones with ephedra anymore, so I can't get those. I want some more Ultra Diet Pep with the green tea extract and the caffeine. Those work pretty well for me.

I don't talk to my doctor or my family about how I feel about my weight. I pretend to be comfortable with it. I hide it from my boyfriend, too. I just want everyone to think that I'm happy and confident about myself.

I'm studying writing and literature at college. I hope this answers all of your questions. Thanks for listening to me - I definitely appreciate it. It feels good to be able to talk to people about the way I really feel about myself.

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Registered: 07-24-2004
In reply to: pinkstar84
Mon, 11-29-2004 - 3:51pm
Hello PinkStar ~ I read your posts and I'm sorry you are feeling like you are right now.
I'm not an expert by any stretch about weight, and I don't know what you look like, but just going by your 'numbers' 5'8 and 130-135lbs doesn't sound to me like you are over-wieght. If you are overweight I guess I am too because I am 5'6 and I am 117-120lbs. I
didn't really think I was overweight,,,though like everyone we always want to knock off a couple of pounds here and there. Anyway,,,just wanted to acknowledge your post PinkStar and hope you can find some answers here. Take Care
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Registered: 02-12-2004
In reply to: pinkstar84
Tue, 11-30-2004 - 6:04pm

Hi Pink,


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In reply to: pinkstar84
Wed, 12-01-2004 - 12:53am
But I think that I would be happy if I were only 100 lbs. Everyone would love me more than they do now, and I could finally be happy with myself. I don't hate myself really, but I just want to feel as though I am perfect.
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Registered: 02-12-2004
In reply to: pinkstar84
Wed, 12-01-2004 - 8:42am

Hi there.... Please know I'm not arguing with you when I say this okay? I just want to point out that in my opinion, when you strive for something that can never be, you are setting yourself up for a fall. We are human--not meant to be perfect! But I understand you need to deal with your anxiety and stress around your perceived weight problem in the way that feels best for you so we are here for you. Hugs, Lori

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In reply to: pinkstar84
Wed, 12-01-2004 - 10:18am
It's okay. I haven't taken offense to anything that you've said. I guess that to some extent, I know that what you are saying is true, but I just can't seem to change my way of thinking about myself. I'm sorry that I'm being so difficult.
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Registered: 02-12-2004
In reply to: pinkstar84
Wed, 12-01-2004 - 4:25pm
You're not being difficult, hon, you're being HUMAN and THAT, our new cyber-friend is the whole point! Be who you are....and if you aren't comfortable with all that you are, work to understand why and to become more accepting of yourself. Quite the challenge, I know! Hugs, Lori
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