Worried about relationship - help!
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| Sun, 12-19-2004 - 12:54am |
I've been feeling absolutely terrible lately, and I'm in sort of a difficult situation. I love my current boyfriend, but I've been sort of bored with him lately. I know that sounds terrible, but it's true. He's a good guy, and he treats me well, but I just feel like we don't connect on an intellectual level. I'm in my third year of college, and he didn't finish high school. I feel like we never have real conversations, and we definitely don't have many interests in common. I'm really into all kinds of writing - fiction, poetry, and creative non-fiction - and I also love to read. He doesn't write or read - he just plays video games and watches anime. I love movies, but I like old movies and psychological thrillers, while he just wants to watch martial arts movies all the time. It's just really frustrating to think that we don't have many interests in common.
But like I said, he does treat me really well. He's gentle with me, and I love the way he holds me and kisses me. I love the way he smells, and I love to snuggle up against him while he's asleep. I feel safe when I'm with him, and I know that he would never hurt me. Do you think that I can just overlook the fact that we don't have that many interests in common?

It's hard because sometimes I wonder if I even like guys at all! *haha*
I'm so confused, quite honestly. I realize that I'm only 20, and that I need to finish my undergrad and probably grad studies before I get serious about anyone, but in the meantime, I do really love my boyfriend, and I don't want to hurt him. I often remind myself that I've had boyfriends that I loved very much before, and have broken up with them, and it wasn't by any means the end of the world, but it still hurts. I guess that I'm afraid of that pain.
I have no idea what I really want. I'm sitting here, trying to rationalize and think of something that sounds halfway reasonable, but I'm coming up with nothing.
Hey there,