having a very hard time

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Registered: 07-24-2004
having a very hard time
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Sat, 01-01-2005 - 11:30am
I hate the supposable signifigance of this new year stuff,,,a whole new start,,,hoping and wishing for better than before things. I guess for some it is applicable. Already I wish it was over, I hate him so much I wish he would die, I hate him so much I want to die just so I won't have to see or hear him ever again. I hate that I am so trapped and that I still don't have the courage to do what I know I should do. I have not even called my T back yet, I am even too cowardly to do that. I can't tell tell her how I am doing, because I am not doing very well and I only esculate my worries wondering what she will think or possibly do. I just am so very very tired of it,,,I don't have anything left to give and just want to surrender to it all. Oh please forgive me for this lousy post on the first day of this year,,,I am so sorry,,,I am just trying very hard right now and just didn't know what to do and thought of here and well,,,I'm sorry. Abby
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Registered: 02-12-2004
Sat, 01-01-2005 - 11:42pm

Hi Abby,


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