Disturbing thoughts *trigger*

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Registered: 11-15-2004
Disturbing thoughts *trigger*
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Sun, 01-02-2005 - 1:11pm
I've been having some really disturbing thoughts of harming myself lately, and I don't really understand why I am having them. I keep having these really elaborate fantasies about slitting my wrists. I imagine how it would feel and what my friends and family would think when they found me or heard about it. The strange thing, though, is that I don't ever really think about myself dying. I always imagine that someone will find me and save me, and I'll get all this attention from my friends and family. I know that this isn't a good way to get attention, but I just can't seem to stop thinking about it. Has anyone else ever had thoughts like this? Should I mention them to my therapist?
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Registered: 02-12-2004
Sun, 01-02-2005 - 6:09pm

Many times when a person is depressed and/or having suicidal thoughts or periods of self injurious behavior a process of escalation occurs. In my case, I experienced depression and PTSD and gradually it got so bad I began self injuring and having fantasies of suicide. Eventually, I acted on these fantasies which I must say I regret to this day!!

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Sun, 01-02-2005 - 7:37pm
I've heard, though, that if you mention suicide or self-injury to a doctor or a therapist, that they automatically lock you up for three days. Is that true?
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Mon, 01-03-2005 - 1:44am

Hi Pink,


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Mon, 01-03-2005 - 11:43am
Thanks for the kind words and the great advice. I'm sort of looking forward to talking to my therapist about it because I'm really hoping that he'll be able to help me get rid of the thoughts. My doctor just prescribed me a sedative to take at night when I'm feeling badly, too, so I'm hoping that will help.