Discouraged & depressed *trigger*

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Registered: 11-15-2004
Discouraged & depressed *trigger*
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Thu, 01-06-2005 - 7:18pm

I'm currently taking 30 mg of Prozac in the morning and 50 mg of Trazodone at night. I originally had a really bad reaction when I started taking the Trazodone with the Prozac, but it's better now. I haven't been sick again.

Anyway, the point that I'm trying to get to is that I don't think the medication is enough. I don't know if I need different medication or higher dosages, but I just still feel depressed all the time. I'm going to therapy, and I like it, but I'm just feeling so discouraged. I think about hurting myself by slitting my wrists all the time because I want to get my family and guy friends' attention. It's not that I want to get back at anyone - it's just that I want them to notice me and realize how much they all love me.

I've talked with my therapist about this a little bit, but I don't want him to institutionalize me, so I try to downplay it a little bit so that he won't think it's too serious. He says that I have more control over my actions than I think, but sometimes I just feel so out of control! Plus, the thoughts really bother me even if I haven't acted on them yet.

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Registered: 02-12-2004
Fri, 01-07-2005 - 12:34pm

Hi Pinkstar,


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Registered: 11-15-2004
Fri, 01-07-2005 - 3:05pm
I actually do find journaling really helpful. I started keeping a new journal for the new year, and it's been pretty helpful. I share some of it with my therapist. Thanks for the great advice!