hi ya'll

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hi ya'll
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Thu, 02-10-2005 - 9:21am

well things here have been very hectic my kids are being lil monsters lately and all they want to do is fight with each other but I have been able to deal with it. The Home Schooling is going pretty well as long as I do each of them at different times. It is takea toll on me tho, I dont get time for myself but as I keep telling myself the good lord gave me these kids and as long as they need me I will be here for them. My T is starting to get a bit concerned tho, she is afraid that I have taken on too much to home school all 4 of them and that I am going to get burnt out, well I kow I have taken on too much but the public schools here arent very well at all and I can not do that to my children and their educations.

The depression has come back but I know that i have this board to come to when I need it, lol I just have to find the time. I am now on day 100 of being smoke free and I feel great about myself and how I feel physically I know my I have saved my life and that is the best feeling in the world.
Yesterday we had a lot of snow here so I got up early and shoveled our sidewalk and my DH's g-ma's and then this old lady beside me just lost her ds that had been living with her so I went over and shoveled her sidewalks and her steps and I tell you just doing that made me feel so good that when she asked how much she owed me and I said nothing I had tears in my eyes b/c I could see how much it meant to her.

My DH and I are doing ok he is still the control freak that he is but I think I have just gotten use to him controlling me that it dont bother me most of the time.

found out a while ago that my dads heart is real sick again and this time there isnt a thing they can do, the whole back part of his heart is 100% blocked so it is only a matter of time b4 he has a heart attack, I dont know how I even feel about losing my dad yet havent even thought of it really. Me and my dad use to be real close but we drifted apart after he adopted my nephew and I found out a few things in T about my daddy that I wished I didnt find out.

Well that is about all that is going on in my life I hope I didnt bore yall too much.

hugs to yall and may God bless each and every one of you guys and remember that it will get better in time and life does get easier, lean on this board it really does great, and we have such a wonderful and loving CL here.

hugs ta yall
Mary




Edited 2/10/2005 9:28 am ET ET by black_ice22
Mary
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Thu, 02-10-2005 - 3:21pm

Mary-


Wow! Homeschooling 4 kids must be a handful!!

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Fri, 02-11-2005 - 9:45am

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Mon, 02-14-2005 - 4:24pm
well Lori I think I am burning out I have really been snapping at my kids and I get so frustrated with them when they wont do their schooling, my T is getting very concerned also and I am to the point of asking to be put in the hospital so I know I will be safe but to me that is just an cop-out at least for me. I dont know if I have shared this with any of you on this board but I also have MPD on top of major depressive so my moods change and I change also and I am to the point of just ending it all, but I am too darn stubborn to let myself quit.
I just found out that one of my uncles passed yesterday, it is like when they start passing away they just dont stop with in a years time I have had 4 people that i was dearly close to has passed away and now my dads health isnt so good and it is only a matter of time I am not as close to my dad as I use to be but when he does die I am going to hate myself b/c I cant tell him the things that i need to tell him.
mary
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Mon, 02-14-2005 - 11:21pm

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