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| Thu, 02-10-2005 - 2:33pm |
Hi
I'm sad, angry, hurt, upset and just pain deppressed.
Today should be a very happy day for me. I will have been married to my husband for 7 wonderful years. So why am I contemplating sucide? I have been supended from work for 8 days. The first 3 days because I was told to swipe in and out for lunch and didn't (I will except those days since that was my fault) and 5 days added on to that because after they told me I was suspended I made the mistake of talking to a two faced bastered who repeated word for word what I said in anger and frustration to the B***ch who suspended me.
Okay maybe I should have said anything at all, but in anger you say things you don't mean, like scratching her car with a key if I knew which one it was. I never had any intention to do anything I was just upset. I have never gotten to trouble for anything I have done before, I'm shy, quiet and a hard worker. But 3 months ago I got injured (I work in a factory and it was a repetive stress injury) My "punishment" has been sitting in a small shed for 8 hours a day with nothing to do. It's were they put all injured worked who they don't really like until they can come back to regular duties, the injured workes they do like get office work and even a couple got promoted. There has been 3 other injured workers, they have been screwing over and now it looks like they what me gone too. But the part that really bothers is, my physiotheripst said that I could return to work when they intall a proper tool for me and that was around christmas time she said I could go back. It has been the company taking there time getting me back to work. And then they find stupid reasons to suspend or fire you. I'm still mad but I'm scared now too, what if they fire me? We can't pay our bills without both of us working. We also just started a bathroom remodel, we have the whole floor busted up, how are we going to finish it?
Dh would be so much better off with out me messing up his life too!

I am so sorry that you are having these horrible problems with work, but they are nothing in relationship to your entire life and everything else that you have.
Hi and welcome to the board--although I wish it were under better circumstances that we ALL could "meet" here in cyberspace! I'm glad you found us!