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| Tue, 02-15-2005 - 10:28am |
i keep doing the strangest things & they are out of my control...i actually owe some spiritual healer 13000$ & just keep doing the opposite ofd everything she says?
i am not in control of myself AND EVERYONE HAS LEFT ME& instead of behaving well...& keeping them only knowing what the y choose..i continue to write accaptances of my insnaity..i wrote my goodbye note *& my i'm so sorry for being susan,but i'd be there for you & you all run from me...i wrote it to some "friends" & some people who could care less.i sedated myself & taped a plastc bag round my head...that's too hard if someone hasn't taped your hands back...i do not want to take another breath.yes..that's how selfish i am....i asked my father to call my h to pick up the kids...i told everyone thanks but no thanks for taking some time for me.you all say i'm CRAZY...well..i am & i did it to myself by FEELING too much.
no answers.
why would i expect anyome too...whew...susiq went looney b/f she died,huh?
i am not in control of myself AND EVERYONE HAS LEFT ME& instead of behaving well...& keeping them only knowing what the y choose..i continue to write accaptances of my insnaity..i wrote my goodbye note *& my i'm so sorry for being susan,but i'd be there for you & you all run from me...i wrote it to some "friends" & some people who could care less.i sedated myself & taped a plastc bag round my head...that's too hard if someone hasn't taped your hands back...i do not want to take another breath.yes..that's how selfish i am....i asked my father to call my h to pick up the kids...i told everyone thanks but no thanks for taking some time for me.you all say i'm CRAZY...well..i am & i did it to myself by FEELING too much.
no answers.
why would i expect anyome too...whew...susiq went looney b/f she died,huh?

Susan-
You need to get some professional help right away and I don't mean calling a spiritual leader. If you are actually
my h wants me to promise to never leave & he'll never use all this against me...but i can't .its too hard to promise anything right now.
thank you for eveything nicole you are the best.
ps..i actually have the best dr & therapist i ever had.that's the part that scares me most.
Hi Susan,
If you have a great Dr. and Therapist, then you have to hang in there and be sure to tell them everything you are feeling. Perhaps, you could keep a journal and write down the moments that you feel especially low.