want to give up --- trigs
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want to give up --- trigs
| Wed, 03-16-2005 - 12:36pm |
I have given up I am so tired of fighting the only thing that has been keeping me here is my children,but that has even gone now, I know my children will do ok after a while they are kids they will learn to deal with it all. I have lost all interest in things that I once enjoyed. My daughters friend and her family are going to do homeschool for me today but they dont know about my depression so I am going to see if they can take my baby and then I am going to take some pills and I hope I take enogh to end the pain. I just cant take trying to be perfect in everything I do and fail at it all. My DH doesnt understand that I am with my children 24/7 w/o a break, I do it all and I am just tired of doing it and feeling like a slave and a prostatute. Yes I know my kids will suffer but I feel htey are suffering now I dont do anything with them I have failed at al I have tried to accomplish.
Thanks all for trying to help a total screw up but I am so mesed up I am not worth the air to breath,
mary
Thanks all for trying to help a total screw up but I am so mesed up I am not worth the air to breath,
mary

please.
call someone.now.
NOT someone toxic either...altho we often thinks those are our best friends.
call the friend who is taking your kids.call a real friend or your neighbor mother brother or husband.
i was where you are & once everybody SAW it they were able to HELP me in the right way.
i've seen you here for a while.please don't leave.
please call someone
Dear Mary,
well I am still here, I had my baby with me the whole day so I couldnt do anything but I did play around with some pills. My T called me to she said that she had a feeling something was wrong and felt drawn to call me to check on me. I am still very very depressed. I have made arrangements to have someone watch my kids if I hapen to get sent to hospital.
My best friend and I talked a lot last night and she convienced me to talk to DH and make him understand wat is going on with me. I would be lost without her I know I said that she said I was a bad mother but that was my depression talking to me and that is how I took what she said and it was totally wrong, she is such a good friend well she is more then a friend she is my little sister.
my T is going to call today to check on me. I told my T everything and she said that sheis getting real concerned about me again, adn I told her that I felt like I was on the ledge of a cliff and any moment I could fall and I have nothing to hold onto.
so for now I am alive, and very very unhappy about that.
Thanks Lori for your kind words I feel close to you also, even tho we have never met I feel like I have known you for a long time.
mary
Hi Mary,