left alone w/ my memories

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Registered: 10-16-2003
left alone w/ my memories
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Thu, 03-17-2005 - 1:22pm
& ugly beatup old self...i'm feeling quite badly again...not AS bad as before.....yet.
but i don't like myself or even forgive myself yet.
is this the rest of my life?
even tho i have managed to sweep away all the toxic people...that's what my breakdown accomplished...it should be a good thing..but since i THOUGHT these people were my best things & my lifeline...it can't help but hurt that they left me behind.
do you know what i mean?
& i have lost interest in myself.i'll never be what i was.i'll always be sad.
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Thu, 03-17-2005 - 1:47pm

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Registered: 10-16-2003
Thu, 03-17-2005 - 4:26pm
do i sound different?
i had a mini breakdown in the car....i thought i'd never get control of myself.
i found myself driving past a toxic ex friends workplace.
i was a sight.
ugly as sin my depression has moved to outside me where everyone can see it.
i ended up buying a pack of cigs..smoked 2 & it didn't make anything better.
i suppose i have to tell my husband tonight.altho i don't see what he can do.