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| Wed, 04-27-2005 - 4:06pm |
I am new to this board, I just posted a message on the depression support board, but I think I was rambling too much and maybe I wasn't clear enough for anyone to understand, no one responded. I guess I have been going through depression off and on for the most part of my life and haven't realized it. I am 28 and living in Washington, D.C. I am currently separated and on the verge of a divorce. My first attempt at suicide, was when I was in a 4yr abusive relationship, I had never experienced anything like that before. My second attempt was in October of last year. I just walked out on my marriage, because I got scared and I didn't know what was going on w/ me and he didn't understand either. My attempt was while I was separated, I didn't know what was going on, I just felt worthless and lonely, it was so many emotions, all negative. Well the hospital admitted me in a mental facility, where I went through therapy and was given medication. I didn't know much about depression, I just thought I was having a hard time coping w/ the separation. I was in denial while there and still in denial after leaving, didn't get any further help. Well, I thought by getting back w/ my husband it would make things better, but it's only making things worse, so we have decided to go along w/ the divorce. It's starting all over again, I don't know what to do. I haven't had any suicidal thoughts lately, but I'm crying constantly, can't sleep, it just seems like everything is out of control. I just don't want to get back to where I want to harm myself. I have come to the realization that I need help.....I just don't know what to do.....I feel lonely and lost....
~Robin~

Hi Robin and welcome to the board! I think you'll find us a supportive and caring bunch here so I hope you'll stick around and get to know us and let us get to know you!
Thanks Lori!
I have a few close friends that I am talking to about referrals. I feel my depression has come from various abuse throughout my life and other issues. And from what my mother tells me, there are a few family members that suffered from depression. I also found out last night that my mother is suffering from depression, we had a very long talk and was able to relate to one another and just share feelings and things we were going through. I also sugessted that she get help as well. Me and my mother have always been close, but now we can really support one another on this and get through it together.
I am ready to be happy again. I am ready to start taking care of myself and looking forward to the joyous things this life has in store for me. Thanks again and much Hugs and positive thoughts.
~Robin~
I'm glad you and your mom had the chance to talk and that you two are close--that will help you BOTH a great deal as you walk the path of recovery! Kudos to you both on seeking help! Please feel free to post anytime, okay? Hugs, Lori