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| Fri, 04-29-2005 - 1:32pm |
I'm now behind more with not seeing my T. Since I cancelled on her because of him and because of money which is because of him I have yet to call her. Knowing her as I do I know she will eventually make contact with me. When she asks how I am what do I say? Do I lie like I do to everyone else and say 'I'm fine thank you',,,or do I tell her that it is like she said before,,,'it is good we don't have a gun in this house.' Sometimes I think I am 'okay',,,well as far as that word applies to my 'okay' and then I have days like today when I know I'm not. I picked up more meds for myself, I had some left but I'm always afraid of running out. I almost backed into a car because my head is so foggy, thank goodness they laid on the horn so I stopped in time,,,,this was because I had first pulled out in front of another car when they were already moving,,,,I am so pathetic. I came home all shaky and still am, and knew I had to SI to get some of this out of me. He started me going bad this morning,,,,,
the yelling and swearing at me so much it makes me want to to to,,,,to do something. So when I was cutting I couldn't believe it but he came home and I had to go so fast to clean it all up,,,,but it made me so angry he interrupted that,,,because that is for me and I find it very upsetting when someone interrupts me. He left soon after though so that was good. I'm thinking this is a really really stupid post. But you know what,,,,seeing how I am a really really stupid person I guess it just kinda works then doesn't it.
sorry,,,,Abby
the yelling and swearing at me so much it makes me want to to to,,,,to do something. So when I was cutting I couldn't believe it but he came home and I had to go so fast to clean it all up,,,,but it made me so angry he interrupted that,,,because that is for me and I find it very upsetting when someone interrupts me. He left soon after though so that was good. I'm thinking this is a really really stupid post. But you know what,,,,seeing how I am a really really stupid person I guess it just kinda works then doesn't it.
sorry,,,,Abby

Hi Abby,