my update

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Registered: 02-06-2004
my update
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Fri, 05-06-2005 - 2:45am

things are pretty good considering the events of a week ago.

First thing I had to do in my recovery was NOTHING. Not only because I needed to recover and get the medication out of my system, but because i had been going non-stop all school year.

Second thing I had to do was keep busy. This is contrary to my normal depressive state, so it was forced, but I needed to feel like I was achieving something in life. I am celebrating every little thing in my Today's Triumph post on the Get Organized board. I need to. I actually was able to give myself a pat on the back for the first time in my life. I got my marks back and got a C+ B- and A.(and first semester D+ A- B- and the other course was full year so the mark is in this semester's) To some these may not look like good marks, but I have been struggling so much through my entire university career. This year was especially hard as my bipolar episodes were increasing in frequency and severity and anxiety was in overdrive. So, facing the most difficult circumstances yet, I had possibly the best year yet (with the exception of first year, maybe). It is the first year that I completed all my assignments, passed all my courses. I am going to graduate!!!!

My memory is completely screwed up so if I posted an update on any of this earlier forgive me.

Tomorrow is my first shift at work since my incident. I am nervous about going to sleep and sleeping right through work. I know that is the most irrational thing to think but I do. I am so mentally and physically exhausted right now that it's possible I will sleep in. I am also worried about what my mood will be like and how I will interact with customers and my coworker. I haven't actually had much human interaction in the last week.

Well, I've gone on long enough, sorry.

Amanda

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Fri, 05-06-2005 - 9:53pm

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