Trigs - Question about SI & SU
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Trigs - Question about SI & SU
| Fri, 05-13-2005 - 5:56pm |
Okay here is a really stupid question,,,it is just that it is a question I often ask myself and can't answer for myself. First off I have been reading about how so many of you guys are trudging through some pretty rough terrain and I truly am proud of you for being able to pull your thoughts together well enough to come and post here. I just so hope so much that things will only improve for you all,,,if it is only a little glimmer instead of some pulsating strobe light that is still something good.
I've never had a ECT nor took enough pills the time I did to do anything big deal to myself. I do however think about it,,,and in the mean time I still do the SI dance. My question is,,,when someone SI's,,,and especially when they are not in a good place right then,,,,it is almost like a form of buffering off the SU,,,,I mean just doing something bad to yourself to keep the really bad stuff happy so to speak. Gosh this sounds pathetic I know,,,I just really didn't know how to word it properly. I hate when I have thoughts and can't corral the proper words together so that what I'm trying to say will come out in verse or prose instead of mumble and jumble.
Thanks though if you read this,,,,Abby
I've never had a ECT nor took enough pills the time I did to do anything big deal to myself. I do however think about it,,,and in the mean time I still do the SI dance. My question is,,,when someone SI's,,,and especially when they are not in a good place right then,,,,it is almost like a form of buffering off the SU,,,,I mean just doing something bad to yourself to keep the really bad stuff happy so to speak. Gosh this sounds pathetic I know,,,I just really didn't know how to word it properly. I hate when I have thoughts and can't corral the proper words together so that what I'm trying to say will come out in verse or prose instead of mumble and jumble.
Thanks though if you read this,,,,Abby

Hi Abby,
Hey Abby,
Makes a lot of sense to me! I agree too that SI is a buffer for the SU thoughts. It is a release, it is pain, it is feeling, it is living.
I wish I could take these things away from you, although I'd rather be here and have others here that SI than to lose everyone to SU!
Love,
Amanda
,,,,Abby
You're welcome (((Abby)))
Hope this finds you well. How are things today?
Amanda