Can't see a point - triggers
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Can't see a point - triggers
| Sat, 05-28-2005 - 5:59pm |
I have posted on other boards but I'm new to this one. I just need to reach out to someone, somewhere. I am so tired of the pain. I haven't left my apartment in 3 days and I don't know when I will. My job is in jeopardy because of all the work I've missed so come Tuesday I will have to go even if I don't feel as though I can drive myself there. My boyfriend (with whom I now have a long distance relationship) has not contacted me due to arguments we've had in the last week and I am trying to come to terms with the loss of him which I feel has now occurred. Our relationship has been rocky for months now, due to my belief that he has not been faithful, so I shouldn't be surprised that he has given up but it still causes me unbelievable pain to realize how completely alone I am. I don't see much point in continuing on but feel trapped out of the obligation not to hurt my parents. All I want to do is sleep but strange as it may sound, I'm even beginning to dread sleep because of how I'll feel when I wake up alone. I just don't see the point to my existence.

Hello & welcome! I am sorry to hear about all this. It must be very tough for you. Is it depression that keeps you from getting out? Maybe you have some anxiety as well? I remember when I was depressed & slept round the clock. I didn't enjoy waking up, either. After all, I had to face the same problems & the
Hi and welcome to our board! I'm sure you will find it a supportive place to share your feelings and thoughts....