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| Mon, 06-13-2005 - 9:43pm |
Hello, me with another stupid question. Haven't been to my T nearing a month for reasons I have written before and others I guess. Thinking she will probably be calling soon. Sometimes I get bad and wish I could just be there in her office right then, like when it is bad here and I'm hurting myself and doing stuff because I'm not coping. Other times I feel okay and debate whether to go back at all because then we talk about things that get me all upset again and it is like it ruins of 'run' of good days. I talk to myself and say you are doing not too badly do you need to keep going back even if she thinks it is a good idea I do. My head feels clear but then gets all fogged up when I think about this because I don't know what to do and it scares me that I don't know what to do. Thing is for me the longer I go between sessions the harder it is for me to recall what was discussed before and the harder it is for me to start it all up again. I have no close friends to talk to, she is the only one I tell things to, but she is a therapist not a friend. It is coming up a year that I have been seeing her and when I think about that I feel so lousy and awful. I better stop now I am getting myself all agitated and upset. So my stupid question is what does one do,,,keep going when she wants you to, just go when you are doing badly,,,,or does one just trip on therapy forever ?
,,,,Abby
,,,,Abby

Hey Abby,
ohh Abby sweetie you need to keep going the things you need to takl about are the things that make you so upset, you have to get tem out and deal with what ever it is that is making you feel the way you do. here is my story in short I was abused as a child starting at the age of 2 and ending between 14-15 years of age, have attempted many times adn have almost succeeded many times, been to the same T for over 12 years and I am still going I have tried to quit T but I just get real bad and I need that safty net. I have a lot of trust issues so I can not go to a different T and plus my T is great she knows how I tick and wat triggers me. She makes me look at my darker side and come to terms with that dark side sometimes I dont feel like haveing a wat I call a bad past day I just tell her that I want a good future day and so we talk about things that are going on in my life that are good.
So what I am trying to say is T doesnt have to always be a place where you go and dredge up painful memories it can be a safe place for you to vent, talk about good things and so on. Please continue to go to T, and be honest with him/her
May God bless you
Mary