T session

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Registered: 07-24-2004
T session
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Thu, 06-23-2005 - 3:41pm
well I finally went to see my T today,,,it was a hard session. We talked a lot about my SI'ing. Then she said to me that she thinks she can't help me as much as I need and deserve,,,her words. She wants to refer me to a psychiatrist,,,please no not another psychiatrist! I was so upset I was crying. She was so kind though, she kept telling me she is not abandoning me that I can still come and see her. But that will be 3 therapists then if this psyc doc takes me. I am so emotionally exhausted I just want to go to sleep and sleep and sleep some more. I like her so much, and I said if I promised not to do it anymore could I still come back? She said that would be very good if I could stop and of course I could still come back even if I wasn't able to stop. Now I am so afraid, I really am. I just hate this kind of stuff. She is the longest I have ever stuck with a therapist and the idea of starting all over again with another just makes me want to silently scream through my tears. It was a surprise her telling me this today, she said she has been thinking about it for awhile actually,,,so she must think I am nuts too. I don't know what to do,,she said she can't force me to go but will be contacting me soon. Oh I am just so sad and afraid. Abby
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Registered: 03-11-2004
In reply to: come_to_nothing
Fri, 06-24-2005 - 5:30am

(((Abby))) I am sorry to hear this. I know how easy it is to

 

 


 



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Registered: 07-24-2004
In reply to: come_to_nothing
Sat, 06-25-2005 - 7:57am
thank you Jan for your response. I still am not doing very well though. So many people kept asking me yesterday at work what was the matter you don't look okay,,,,I hate that. It isn't good here again (he cuffed me across the lip and ear) and the stress is so so difficult for me to cope with. Have work again, good to go to get out of here but still hard for me to make it through the day there too. I just wish it would all stop.
Abby
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Registered: 07-24-2004
In reply to: come_to_nothing
Sun, 06-26-2005 - 8:10pm
When someone tells you all of the time how you can't do anything right,,,how they have to repeat it over and over again because you never get it the first time,,,,to let them do it because you can't,,,,and when you try to stick up for yourself they talk to you in a condensending way like you are a child,,,,and they ask 'Just what happens in that head of yours when you get like this???? I thought you were seeing someone to fix that????' When I hear that all of the time I want to just,,,,,just,,,,,,make it go away forever. It is always my fault,,,,and when I ask him if he will miss me when I die he laughs.
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Registered: 02-06-2004
In reply to: come_to_nothing
Mon, 06-27-2005 - 3:52pm

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Abby))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I wish that you could get out of that situation and everything would work out. He may laugh when you ask if he will miss you when you're dead, but we aren't. We love you and would miss you very much!

Be safe, be strong.

Love,
Amanda

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