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| Sun, 07-03-2005 - 4:45pm |
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I wrote this on anotehr board. I think it will be a good intro...
"Hi... My name is Don... I can't kep this in anymore. Even the Protecters know they have to let me write this, so thre no stopping me. I want to cry. I don't know what to do. I want to kill Us, but yet Iw don't, and I don't know why I don't want to kill Us... I guess I'm afra*d of why I don't want to kill Us... I guess I'm afra*d of the feelings, involved in why I don't want to kill Us... I don't know... I just wish I had someone to talk to offline, about this, in my true voice and all... I just don't know what to do... I want to be upfront with people, but it's hard cuz people don't bealve Us offline, and theres no where to turn but the internet... I guess that will have to do hu? ...
Don
1:55 AM
I feel like I'm totaly d*ad inside... I really don't know why I'm writting this... I should say this to a person offline... But they don' bealve that We are real, and that h*rts... Sorry... I really don't know what to do. I feel like I'm slipping away. I feel so crappy, that I'm wrootting a story about d*ath... I just started it tonight... I guess I'm afra*d of d8ath, and also life...
Don"
Edited 7/3/2005 4:50 pm ET ET by manymults

Don,
Welcome. Judging by your post, I'd say you are referring to a dissociative disorder, possibly DID. We are not here to judge you. I hope you understand that. If that is what people aren't believing in you, rest assured you are as welcome as everyone else and we are not here to condemn anyone.
It seems that you know that suicide is not an answer, but you are having a difficult time coping. Are you seeing a therapist? If so is tdoc one of the people that doesn't believe you? Trust me, I get that. (grrr).
Well I really suck at finding the right words, but welcome.
Amanda
I am very sorry to hear this, Don. I've never been in a situation where ppl didn't believe my condition. That must be so hard. I know that you are readily accepted & a respected member of another board. I know that we are very glad to have you here. Just wishing that
Hi Don and welcome to our board...
Thanks for teh welcome, and not judgeing me.
Ya, I'm in a DID System.
Ya, I guess I know that killing Us isn;'t teh answer, but, I really don't know how o cope. I gut to many b*d feelings when c*tt*ng.
Thanks for the welcome.
Don
Someone in here has told Our mom. She got us to a Tdoc, and the T doc says that there should be a T for Us in maybe 2 weeks. I guess I have to tr8st someone right? I guess I'm feelin trapped on who o tr*st offline, and my feelings on why I want to live.
Don
We're glad you know that DID is real. Our Tdoc doesn't bealve in it.
I guess it's like his. I feel like I'm a ghost, or soemthing, and noone can see me, and I want them to see me, but they don't want me, and so, naturly, I want to end it. But I also want life, for some reason.
Don, other
Don,
I am not DID, but DD-NOS, so I do understand. I especiallly understand feeling like a ghost. Sometimes I want that, usually I just wish someone would believe me too. I feel like my pdoc doesn't believe in my bipolar and borderline pd dx's, but that's her problem. Heh.
Just wanted to say once again that I know where you are coming from. I just felt compelled to post that lol.
Amanda
Don