Im a newbie

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Registered: 04-13-2003
Im a newbie
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Sun, 07-03-2005 - 7:50pm

Hello,

I'm Alexis, and I was diagnoised with BPD when I was 21 (now 22). Life has been hard for me this year.

I tried to commit suicide back in April by taking pills, and ended up being in patient for a few days.

I have been self injuring since I was 3 years old.

Today, I am still suicidal, and desperetly want this feeling to go away.
I tried to drown myself in my bath tub, but decided that suffercation was not the way I wanted to go.

I wish that I didn't always revisit suicide as an option to end this pain, but I can't find any other way out. I am just deperate for all this to end...whether I am living or not.

~alexis

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Registered: 03-08-2004
In reply to: sillywilly19
Mon, 07-04-2005 - 12:18am

Welcome Alexis. I haven't tryed to do anything to end my life, but I was really close once, by my mom said it wouldn't h*rt me so... Anyways, welcome to teh board. i'm new as well.

Don

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Registered: 03-11-2004
In reply to: sillywilly19
Mon, 07-04-2005 - 8:53am

Welcome to our community, Alexis. You are not alone. All of us have considered taking our lives @ some point. We chose life, even though life can be

 

 


 



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Registered: 02-12-2004
In reply to: sillywilly19
Mon, 07-04-2005 - 3:36pm

Hi Alexis and welcome! I hope you will find this a supportive place to "vent" and share both your struggles and your good days!


It makes me so sad to think that a child as young as three could have self injuring and/or suicidal tendencies! I know society as a whole would like to believe that childhood is such a carefree and magical time--and for many, thankfully it is. But here on this board and others like it, we know that is not the case for many others... I'm sorry you were one of those hurting children!


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