struggling trigs

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Registered: 07-24-2004
struggling trigs
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Mon, 07-11-2005 - 10:20pm
been having a hard time (again) days can be so bad here and my head and thoughts get so shattered all I can think of is dying to stop it all. i wish i could just run away leave everyone behind but when i think of doing that it scares me for my children. i told him it is lucky we don't have a gun here. my head is already a mess and he keeps stirring it making it worse. he laughs and makes stupid noises turn lights on at night makes noise so i can't sleep so i have to take meds to keep me asleep. i told him i was going to go and have an affair i need someone else. haven't seen my t in 2 weeks but haven't been able to go. she is getting me a pdoc but haven't heard anything yet. last night i held my bottles of pills and spilled them on my blanket and just so considered taking them all so he would find me dead beside him in the morning,,,,ha,,,,,that would teach him. but my kids, and how it traps me because of that and how it makes me feel even more desperate because i can't do what i want to do,,,now anyway. i am so tired, sleep deprived and tired from smiling when i have to do that for the sake of others. sorry i am just not in a very good place right now. Abby
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Registered: 03-11-2004
Tue, 07-12-2005 - 6:44am

I am sorry to hear that you're not in a good place. Life is a struggle for many, Abby,

 

 


 



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Registered: 02-12-2004
Tue, 07-12-2005 - 10:43am

Hi Abby,


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