Oy waht a day! I'm not safe trigs xpost

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Oy waht a day! I'm not safe trigs xpost
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Fri, 07-22-2005 - 2:19am

I slept all day until I had to go to work (and then get mad at myself for sleeping). Then at work my coworker has obviously gotten over her "I'm new so I better watch what I say" attitude and has already started pulling complete attitude with me. I am also in a lot of pain and find that I cannot do a lot of my work (things that require gripping hurt my wrist, mopping kills my shoulder and wrist, just a few examples). My coworker did next to nothing (2 things versus 10) and I did most of the serving, and then she expects to go home right at midnight becase "she is done". No sorry doesn't work that way. For one thing the dining room is not equal to the front as far as work load goes and for two it's a joint effort. We are supposed to leave at the same time. So, if she helps with the work then we both get to go sooner, but nooooo she doesn't deserve to do "my" work. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

I was so mad and depressed that I was crying before I even left work and quickly became triggered to SI and SU. How can I possibly work with her for the next 3 days?! Why should I let her "win" by hurting myself? But that's how I feel.

Now of course more gossip will fly about me. Whatever. I know I shouldn't care what those losers think.

I've been looking into going on employment insurance (sick) benefits. It will be two weeks before I get to see my doctor again and I don't know how EI works. I don't want to quit before I get that figured out. I hate that I physically can't do my job and I hate my coworker's response when I said I really can't mop right now..."then why do you work here?" Well I haven't always been in so much pain! Instead of just being helpful she has to be a bitch. I guess that store attracts bitchy workers. People who can't do any better than a sub shop, obviously. I have a degree and still can't EVEN do my job at a sub shop let alone better.

Amanda aka loser

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Fri, 07-22-2005 - 9:34am

Honestly, we can't have the name *loser* flying around here loosely! That is reserved for me as my teen dd uses it to describe me in all situations:)


I am not a therapist, Amanda. But it seems to me that when you get angry & frustrated, you feel the need to hurt yourself. I have no clue why that is. Why punish yourself, when it's so obvious that it's your co-worker that's the loser? Getting a good job nowadays is hard. Ppl with all kinds of degrees are waiting tables or ringing up sales in all sorts of places. There's nothing bad in that. On your resume' it will look alot better that you worked in a sub shop until the ideal job came along, instead of staying home & doing nothing till your ship came in. You don't give yourself enough credit.


Please don't allow the new worker to get to you. She sounds like someone who will derive alot of pleasure from that. I'm not suggesting you put on a happy face. Just be matter of fact & set the boundaries that you expect. Put it out there about your pain & the doctor's appt.

 

 


 



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Fri, 07-22-2005 - 2:22pm

Thanks (((Jan)))

Yes it is true that I want to hurt myself when I get angry and frustrated, even when it's other people's fault I take it out on myself. By this point in my life that is likely a habit. I don't know why it started in the first place but by now I've been doing it for years.

I still have to work with the same coworker for 3 days so something better work out today. I don't know what to do or say. But she is "sensitive" she says which means she'll bitch if I say the tiniest thing to her too. I try to be nice about all the things I say but if it's not what she wants to hear then she starts bitching. I will admit that I do the same thing, but I am consciously trying not to.

I did tell her about my pain and that I don't see the doctor for 2 weeks and I work there because I wasn't always unable to do my job. In her eyes I'm just selfish and lazy. Even though I did 90% of the work yesterday.

As far as my pain goes, resting does help but at the same time I think I need something like water exercise to keep them moving. There is no injury as far as I know. My doctor suggested fibromyalgia last time, but i don't think so. I'm thinking osteoarthritis, although he thinks I'm too young...I don't think so with a history of eating problems? I did a quiz and have 85% of osteo symptoms.

Here we go on another shift...

amanda

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