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| Sat, 09-03-2005 - 10:52pm |
Going through a bit of a scare right now... Well, to ME it's scary, but my gyn isn't concerned. With my severe anxiety, I get really anxious about stuff like this, regardless of what my gyn will say...
Anyway, here's the scoop...
A couple of days ago, I THOUGHT I found something in my R breast. It was tiny, and it seemed to feel "granular"... not like a regular squishy sort of thing. Well, I kept trying to find it all day, and I was really obsessive about it.
Later that evening I noticed that I could actually SEE something, right near the nipple, underneath. Of course, I panic. (I have been through this before, it was nothing but a cyst... but, still...)
So, then yesterday AM I called my gyn's office, and almost cried to the nurse. She said to relax, that I MIGHT need to call the other office, as that is where my file is... and she said to hold on... and then she came back on and said that Dr. S (my gyn) is in the office I had called, and I could be seen at 2:30 that afternoon. I was so relieved to be seen by HER on the same day.
So, I go...
She walked in and I wanted to cry... I said "OMG, I am bothering you so much these days..." and she said NO, it's okay... "What's going on?"
So, I told her what I thought I felt yesterday, and I was constantly digging for it (LMAO, yeah, obsessively trying to find it)... and then I noticed, later, a lump that you can actually see.
She did a quick exam, said that most likely it's a milk duct or a cyst, nothing to be concerned about, and ordered an u/s. I have it scheduled for Tuesday.
*sigh*... I hate these kinds of things. Always freak me out. What scares me is that, one time when I had a scare like this, I took way too much Xanax and collapsed... I don't want to do that again... yet I know that I have a bottle of Klonopin handy... :(
Oh, an update on PMDD...
As you know I have a severe case of PMDD (premenstrual dysphoric disorder) and it has become more and more severe with each cycle. My therapist and psych are quite concerned, and wanted to get a third party involved in my care.
So, my psych made a call to Pittsburgh's Magee Women's Hospital and left a message with someone. This person was going to call back when I had my appt with my psych on Wednesday, but she didn't. I had an appt with the therapist on Thursday, and he told me that he ended up taking the call. He chatted with this woman for a while about my situation, and she said that they could definitely help get me stabilized, as they are very knowledgable in issues such as PMDD and PPD, among other women's health issues.
So, my therapist gave me a phone number to call... and I made that call yesterday AM. Spoke to the woman (she does intake) and I have an appt scheduled with a Dr. Gray/Grey for the end of this month.
I'm nervous about this appt, yet relieved to have it. Please cross your fingers, say a prayer, whatever it is that you do (!) that these people can help stabilize my PMDD. It would be such a huge relief for me! It's beginning to hit, as AF is due sometime next weekend, I think, and I noticed myself losing it on my kids last night. Ugh.
Vida


I am sorry to hear this, Vida. I had a breast lump scare a couple of years ago. It's a panicking feeling. Please try to relax & keep things in perspective. In most cases, it's nothing @ all. I know that's difficult to accept, as breast ca is a big issue for us women.
I don't know where you live. I am in NW PA. But, Magee Women's Hospital is the BEST! I had dealings with them for prenatal testing before Jas was born. They are cutting edge. I know their program on PMDD is one of the best. You are so lucky to have access to it. Take advantage of this awesome opportunity. Hang in there for you & your kids. Don't take any pills, please. You have so much to look forward to. Remember when the kids get too much to take some deep breaths & count to 10. Get someone to lend you a hand & give yourself a break. Keeping you in my T&P's. Keep in touch! (((hugs))) jan
Thanks...I'm trying to stay calm... but it's so hard for me, as my anxiety goes on overload, KWIM?
You are in NW PA? You've been to Magee?
I'm near Pgh... near the Greater Pgh Airport, actually. Where are you?
Vida
I know it's hard, Vida. But I'm confident you can make it. Do you try relaxing things like music, crafts, bubble baths, breathing, reading?
I'm an hour south of Erie between Oil City & Titusville. The boonies:) Good luck! (((hugs))) jan