update, and vent.. pos trigs
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| Tue, 09-27-2005 - 11:43am |
well my dad is out of the hospital and is doing ok so far. As you all know I have a very very close friend I met online and we live in different states and we go and see each other once a year well she is so close to me I feel as if she is my little sister. She knows what all has happened to my DD and all the pain my paretns have caused and she even knows how I want to see my dad and want my kids to see my dad but yet I have to make sure my kids are safe, well she actually called me selfish, she said my poor dad is so ill and all he wants to do is see my kids and yes this is true but no one cares to protect the kids but me. I am so tired of justifying myself and how I want to protect my kids to everyone, why should I have to do that, it should come naturally to people. I know my best friend only means well and she even said that she didnt want me to regret stuff when my dad passed, but that doesnt mean it hurts any less, I dont feel that I am being selfish, I feel as I am being a good mom to my kids, my nephew is not safe I can protect my kids from the sexual abuse from my nephew but I cant protect them from his temper he almost hurt my ds when he was 1 and I just cant sacrifice my children like other parents do.I guess people are just ignorant in the aspects of protecting thier children.
I havent seen my dad yet adn I plan on going in Oct after the 12th but taht still is far away and he may not make it then, he continues to smoke and it isnt just a few it is 1 1/2 packs to 2 packs a day and he doesnt follow the diet.
I dont know why I allow people to get to me so much I guess it is that I have had to justify protecting my kids from a family member adn I guess people are still living in the olden days in the fact that you dont mention what has happened, well I refuse to do that, my children are the most important things in my life and I will die/kill for them.
sorry for this post just dragging on but I do feel a bit better, I just appreciate this board and the loving and carinf people who are so accepting towards everyone.

Hey Mary,
Sorry to hear that your friend called you selfish. I can imagine how painful that is to hear. I am so glad you are there to protect your kids. You are right to do that.