A little anxious here, need to just talk
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| Tue, 10-11-2005 - 11:42pm |
I'm so very tired, I should be in bed, but I just can't, not yet...
My daughter Vilija is scheduled for surgery for Nov 17th. She's having a palate surgery done... the p/flap procedure, actually. Her surgeon is basically going to take some tissue from the back of her throat and build a "bridge" to the soft palate, to close the wide gap that is there. This is going to help her speech move along, so it's a good thing. But surgeries always make me so very scared, this is her 5th one. She's my baby... :(
I called my therapist... well... my "original" therapist... a little while ago, I left a message on his voice mail. I need to see him so badly. It's been a freaking month. But I'm not allowed to see him for therapy for now, since I'm under the care of a different psych, and I have to see one of the therapists in her practice. I have an appt with one of them next week, and in all honesty, I'm just not wanting to go. I might even cancel, I don't know. I'll make up an excuse.
I DON'T WANT TO CHANGE THERAPISTS OR PSYCHS. This is only temporary, as the new psych will let me return to my original docs once I'm stabilized with the PMDD... but,still... I just don't like this change. I want to see B again, I need to go to his office and feel "safe" again.
I'm so upset about this...
:(
Vida


Hi Vida,
It's good that this surgery is going to help your daughter, and I understand how scared you are. I'll keep you in my prayers.
I know you want to see your old therapist, and it's a good thing that you will get to go back. Sometimes we have to put up with things we don't like, and this new therapist is one of those things. I hope you get back to the old one soon.