No chance...

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Registered: 01-02-2005
No chance...
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Mon, 11-14-2005 - 7:47am

I realizied at 4:30am why I hate myself. I grew up like a lot of people...in a dysfunctional family.

My Mom used to say "I love you but I don’t like you" & then she taught you that & think I have no chance with you or your family. Do you know what it’s like not to have your own sister like you & then it’s not even have another whole generation that doesn’t like me.. My sister was taught to treat my like the identified patient. She talks to me in a patronizing voice which I have told her.

With all the therapy I have done, nothing takes away this pain & this is why I feel so crappy about myself & why I want to end things. It amplifies all my lack of self-loathing when her & her family don't want to be any closer to me. They think I am crazy & even her kids talk to me in a condascending voice.

Any advice? I am thinking about telling her this, but what is the point.

Jstbu

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Registered: 02-12-2004
In reply to: jstbu
Mon, 11-14-2005 - 3:21pm

Hey there,


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In reply to: jstbu
Fri, 11-18-2005 - 11:41pm

Jstbu,


I'm sorry that people are being condescending. That is very unfair. You deserve much better than that. You are a great person. You don't deserve others to talk down to you and you don't deserve to treat yourself poorly either. I know, easier said than done.


Do something nice for yourself today.

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