update............. trigs

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Registered: 04-21-2003
update............. trigs
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Mon, 11-14-2005 - 7:50am

well I wasnt doing well at all and for some reason my T called me b4 she left the office Thursday night and asked me how I was doing well she could tell soemthing was wrong I tried to lie to her but she knows me too well. She told me that I needed to go back onmy meds but I threw them away so I had to make an appointment with my doc and he gave me some new kind of medicine it is called Cymbalta I didnt want to take any meds but my T said if I didnt she could and would put me in the hospital b/c I was going down hill very very fast, still not sleeping well and still very very depressed and yet I still dont want to be on meds to help me feel good.

having problems with relationships also not so much me and my DH but with my DD and my best friend. My DD and I bang heads all the time I love her dearly but I cant stand her most of the time a lot of ppl have said her and I are so much alike that is why we dont get along, so I am having her go over to her friends house and do school and then she comes homw when her dad gets home.
my best friend and I have been fighting a lot lately last night she was really mean and said hurtful things, I know she is going through depression also and is struggling with some issues, but so am I but I bit my tongue and didnt say wat I wanted to b/c I knew it would hurt her and I just didnt want to do that to her I love her as a lil sister. I guess I jsut dont understand how ppl can be so angry that they say very hurtful things. The things she said to me last night will stay with me forever, I am being very careful in wat I say to her so she isnt to hurt me again, and I WONT let her know that I am very depressed I thought she was the one person who I could be totally honest about things but I cant tell her how I am feeling or wat I am thinking.

Mary

Mary
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Registered: 02-12-2004
Mon, 11-14-2005 - 3:09pm

Hi Mary,


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Fri, 11-18-2005 - 11:31pm

I hope you will go back on your meds. I do hope that you don't have to go to the hospital, but I've been close myself lately.


I'm also sorry you are having trouble with relationships. Sometimes it just seems we have trouble getting along with people. I hope that improves.


I'm sorry I don't have anything better to say, I'm not doing too well.

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Amanda

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Registered: 04-21-2003
Sat, 11-19-2005 - 11:39am
I am sorry to hear that you arent doing well, hope you start feeling better soon.
Mary
Mary