Still feeling the same way (m)
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Still feeling the same way (m)
| Tue, 12-06-2005 - 12:11am |
I can see why this board is so empty. I am still feeling the same. I am changing from Wellbutrin to Celexa. I still think about the suicide plan everyday. I just don't have much to look forward to. I know I have a lot to be grateful for & there are bigger problems than mine, but I just think given my background that I will never heal. I don't know if I want to heal either.
I know the holidays are tough for some people. I am here.

I'm glad you are here.... even though YOU don't feel you care much about life at this time try to keep in mind that others care about YOU! That is often hard to believe when we are feeling so low and care so little about ourselves but it's true!
I have told the therapist & the doc. I know & they know I won;t do anything right now but I do have a plan. It's just getting the courage to do it. I won't do it until my dad leaves the planet.
My friends know how down I am and given how down I am I don't have many. I am 40, never been married. I have been in & out of therapy for years. Nothing seems to help so that is why I am feeling hopeless. To be happy with just myself isn't enough. To complie a gratitude list isn't enough. I know I must sound like a sad sack but when you have been trying for so long to see the light & it's still dark...what's the point. Life is not fun and the only thing I can look forward to is menopause.
Gawd, I know this sounds awful, but everytime I have a glimmer of hope it gets dashed. i am tired of kidding myself.
Thanks for listening.
I too am changing from Wellbutrin to Celexa!
It's hard to deal with the intrusive thoughts but I hope you are doing everything to stay safe. I know it's hard. I don't know your whole background, but you know you can talk to me whenever you need to.
Hang in there,
co-cl of the Self-Injury