A POSITIVE posting from me!... m...
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| Thu, 01-05-2006 - 7:19pm |
I have to share this, you will all so very much appreciate a positive post from me!
As you know, I have been attending a women's intensive outpx treatment program for a few weeks now, totally MISSING LIKE HECK my original therapist. The IOP has really done wonders. It's based on DBT... dialectical behavioral therapy. I have a ways to go, but people have actually noticed a difference in me... as do I!! Even ALAN has, and that's awesome, I have to say. My clinicians are so very proud of me, they are very happy with my progress and are very happy that I have been so very open/honest with them. I mean, I really tell them what's going on with me, if I self-injured myself, if I took more meds than I should have... etc... It's been a Godsend, and I'm really feeling proud of myself as well.
I did have a majorly difficult holiday, and then last week I had emailed my therapist (*B*, the one I really MISS), and his response to me, although promising, wasn't what I wanted to read. It made me feel extremely vulnerable to horrible emotion, so I had a really bad time coping. I had to promise my clinicians that I would stay safe... and stay alive. And... I'm doing so...
Oh... I don't think I ever mentioned this before, but I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. So, I have major depression/anxiety, PMDD, and borderline personality disorder... most likely all stemming from the severe PPD that I had when Vilija was born. Oh what fun... NOT. But you know what? I'm surviving it! Somehow...
Love to all...
Vida


Hi Vida,