How is everyone?

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How is everyone?
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Wed, 02-15-2006 - 1:41pm

Just wondering how everyone is, and if you're wondering about me, I'm coping but just barely with depression and possibly a mixed state. I am also extremely stressed due to midterm exams.


I saw my new pdoc today and she is awesome. We are considering lithium and lamictal, which my other pdoc was considering. She has refered me to an eating disorder program at the hospital. I am also going to go to an open eating disorder group with my friend. Unfortunately I've been struggling with food issues again. My pdoc says I have body dysmorphic disorder. My eating disorder likely falls under ED-NOS.


I also am in a CBT and DBT group.


If my depression gets any worse I will be going in the hospital.


I'm sorry if I can't be of much help right now and sorry to blab about me.


 


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Edited 2/15/2006 1:43 pm ET by cl-schitz

Amanda

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Thu, 02-16-2006 - 11:14am

Hey honey...its funny, well you know what I mean...I WAS wondering about you...came here...I am in the SAME place you are...almost exactly...I've been cycling SO rapidly SO SO SO rapidly...new pdoc, well actually TWO pdocs now...on major doses of Lamictal and Topamax, which has triggered my ED. Have lost weight in 3 weeks, but don't want to trig you so I won't go into that...almost ALMOST (probably should have been) ended up in the hospital myself...but have managed to stay out...Fighting SO hard...will probably add some Lithium back to my other meds too...pdocs aren't as concerned with my ED as they are about my BP and PTSD and BPD right now...am supposed to go back to therapy, but it terrifies me...anyway, I love you and miss you...

Please stay safe. If you need me, come to my board.

Keli

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Thu, 02-16-2006 - 3:04pm

Hi Amanda,

I'm sorry you have so many health issues to cope with. Mental health issues are even harder because no one understands and there isn't much support. But we understand that it's very real and painful.

You're working hard to get well, and that means you're doing the best you can and that's all anyone can do. It's good that you're making your health a priority and trying different things.

Food is a big issue too. It's hard to eat healthy on a good day, never mind when there's so much emotional baggage involved and an eating disorder to cope with and you're so stressed out. Sometimes I try to see food as vitamins and nutrients. I like to research and find out what nutrient is in each food. So it motivates me to eat it or try to. Spinach and sweet potatoes are very healthy, they're called "super foods" becuase they're so good for you. If you can eat a few bites of health food each day and think of it as a nutrient, you'll be giving your body power.

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Fri, 02-17-2006 - 5:30pm
Hey Amanda,,,,first off no apologies for sharing things about yourself,,,please. And if you are struggling with 'stuff' right now we all fully understand how and why you are not able to help with things. I am so so glad you like your new pdoc,,,how important is that??? I'm sorry I don't know what the initals mean that represent the groups you are in,,,but I do know that I hope they are helpful to you. Please do the best you are able,,,feel badly you are 'coping but just barely with depression',,,a lot of us can relate to that.
Will be thinking of you and wishing only for better things to come (((Amanda)))
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Thu, 03-02-2006 - 5:08pm

Keli.


First off all my love and hugs to you.


Thank you for writing me.


My ED has been pretty bad lately. I started going to a support group though.


The hospital was really triggering for my ED (warning may trigger). I was just surrounded by so much food all the time. I was not used to eating three meals and especially not that much (they feed you enough in a meal for my entire daily intake). I had been doing well with purging until I went into the hospital. Since they fed me so much I usually ate one meal, purged another and skipped the third.


Thanks for being there. I'm miss you. I know I should just email. I just can't handle the bipolar board right now there are too many posts and I feel like I have to post to everyone. It's enough work being a CL for three boards. I haven't been going to the eating disorder board either but if I'm going to get back on track maybe I should.


All my love,


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Amanda

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Thu, 03-02-2006 - 5:10pm

(((blue))))


Thank you for your reply. Reiki is awesome. I hope it did help.


Yes I definatly have a lot going on emotionally, hence landing up in the hospital. The ED is very present and taking over right now but it is also the focus of my therapy and I'm going to a support group too. I was refered to a program in the hospital but they need my family doc's referal not my pdoc (who is the one who refered me).


Hope all is well with you.


Amanda

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Thu, 03-02-2006 - 5:15pm

((abby))


First off if I mixed up names sorry.


Secondly, thanks for posting.


I do love my new pdoc. She is taking my bipolar and ED seriously and that is great.


The groups are cognitive behavioural therapy CBT which is over now and basically that is that you can change the way you feel by changing your thoughts. Then there is the Dialectical Behavioural Therapy DBT group, which is a form of CBT. This module we are looking at distress tolerence. Then there is the Eating Disorder ED group. Phew! I sure know how to keep busy. But it's good for me and I tend to get a lot out of groups.


I guess "coping just barely" ended up being an overstatement, since I landed in the hospital. I'm back to the coping level though. At times it is still "just barely" but I'm doing everything in my power to stay well. I will share my recovery action plan when I get a chance.


Hugs,

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