ect treatment-memory

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ect treatment-memory
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Sun, 04-02-2006 - 8:51pm
Hi, i'm a 19 year old teenager, I'v ben struggling with ocd/depression for the past 3 years but lately it got so bad I had to withdraw from college, and come back home. I have been hopitalized 2 times for the past 2 months and the doctor reccomended ECT. I wnat to know has anyone here had thsi tretament. If so, how much memory prior teh treatment was lost, because I really really want that. I've been tormented by thoughts everyday. I don't want to live anymore if this ect tretament failed, i want to forget everything and start over.

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Registered: 04-18-2003
Tue, 04-18-2006 - 4:03pm

I know there is help out there for you.

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 03-17-2006
Tue, 04-18-2006 - 6:37pm
i don't think anythign would help, if half a year ago maybe, that's when i was still funtionable, now i'm no more than a handicapped person, i spent nearly 1/2 the day performing my rituals, If only there's memory loss surgery, i hate to sound so hopeless but that's exactly how i feel now.
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Registered: 04-18-2003
Tue, 04-18-2006 - 8:14pm

At this point in time, our diagnosis are different, but I have been where you are before.

Sheri Ann

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Tue, 04-18-2006 - 9:47pm
i'm thinking of psycosurgery, what do you think?
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Wed, 04-19-2006 - 10:36am

I do not know anyone that has had ECT or psychosurgery.

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 03-09-2005
Wed, 04-19-2006 - 10:46am

"God, just let me die,...I don't understand, if God's not going to let me die, at least make me feel better, what does he want?"

I feel this way a lot too- that my life is nothing but suffering with no point. I don't understand the point of it either or the reasons, if there are any, that other people are happy and successful and I'm so not.

You definatley need a different medical treatment but not surgery...that's scary...try different meds, what do you have to lose at this point?

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Registered: 03-09-2005
Wed, 04-19-2006 - 10:51am

Sheri,

Your post interest me becuase I have often felt that if I were rich enough to afford it, I too would be agorophobic- it's only the need to do the bare minimum to have a decent home that motivates me to leave the house. I have social phobia, driving phobia, and like to stay home most of the time. I do drive now but it's often a struggle and I have to say a little prayer before I start the car, and feel like I can't relax until I get out of the car.

I only work part time even though we need more money probably becuase of my issues, although I have been job seeking I"m sure my issues are part of why no one hires me- they wonder, "Why were you unemployed for two years?" and I can't get interviews. But then I wonder- if I do get a job, how can I handle being "on" for 40 hours per week?

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Registered: 03-17-2006
Wed, 04-19-2006 - 3:14pm
i tried everything, there's 2 I haven't tried yet, but i don't think it'll be helpful considering the 10 failed ones i've tried before, but because of you I will:)
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Registered: 04-18-2003
Fri, 04-21-2006 - 10:36am

I am petrified to go back to work!

Sheri Ann

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