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Registered: 04-21-2003
update trigs ?????
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Thu, 05-11-2006 - 11:22am

well today is a good day for me on my roller coaster of mood swings, I have been up for over 24 hours and I feel great, I went off one of my meds it just made me feel horrible I dont know why everyone thinks medicine is all that makes one feel good.I have all these ppl after me to take this stupid medicine and I refuse to do it, I tried it and I hate it.

my thoughts are scattered all the time now and I cant concentrate on anything but I am actually happy, they say I have bipolar but I know that i do not have it look at me I feel great and I am off the meds.

I am no longer doing home education I have a family friend doing it for me but no one will allow me to be left alone and I just need time to myself to unwind and get in touch with me again, but everyone is afraid that i am going to crash and try to kill myself, yes I know they have grounds to be concerned but hello I am doing fine now.

Sorry to you all that arent doing well it will and it DOES get better just allow yourself to know that and to have time to make it happen.

Mary

Mary
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Registered: 03-25-2003
Thu, 05-11-2006 - 11:35am

hey mary...though i don't post, i do keep up with everyone...i am really concerned for you, because you are bipolar, and yes, you say you're not... because you feel great, but hon, you know that is one of the moods you cycle through...mania...not sure which med you went off of, but please be very careful doing that, because i know from experience, that what goes up (your mood) will crash back down very hard, and you crash hard already.

i've done this bipolar crap for years now, and been on every med there is...i know they suck...and i wish it was better...but the pdocs know best sometimes...

just trying to let you know i care, and i'm still here...

love and hugs,

keli

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Registered: 04-21-2003
Thu, 05-11-2006 - 1:51pm

the meds I stopped taking is Risperdal he wanted to put me on lithium and I said no way I will never take that. this is all so confusing to me I dont know which way I am going but I don't want to have to rely on drugs to keep me going ya know.

Mary

Mary
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Registered: 02-12-2004
Thu, 05-11-2006 - 4:27pm

Hi Mary,


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Mon, 05-15-2006 - 4:40pm

Mary,


I know you're feeling good, and to me you sound a little manic. I agree that if the meds weren't working then you shouldn't have to stay on them, but maybe there was a better way to get around it. I wouldn't shut out Lithium without trying it. I know you don't want to rely on meds, but for some of us that's the way it has to be. You are no less of the person you are but needing to take meds.


Maybe you can get away and still have contact with the people who care about you so they don't worry. That way you can appease them and still get the solstice you need.


Keep posting. I want to know how you are doing (sorry to

Amanda