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Don't know where to turm ...triggs
| Sun, 05-21-2006 - 4:26pm |
First a little about my self I am 33y/o female who suffers from depression Schizopernia and MS I take my meds everyday but lately I feel like I am getting further away from everything. I still love my dh but I am unhappy in my marriage My dad died in the beginng
of April I don't work and I only have two friends one who lives 60 miles away and the other works and has 4 kids and a new boyfreind So the only people I talk to on a regular bases is my dh and my mom & sister I don't want to burden my mom or sister and I think my dh is getting tired of all my problems he is away this week end at a class and it seems like I am lost becuase I haven't spoken to him since friday I feel like a complete failure and I feel like everybody will be better off without me I wrote my dh and email last nite it was part of my journal just so he knows what is going on in case I do it I see my therphyist on Friday I haven't been that truthful to her about everything because I don't want to go into the hospital I am scared if I go in the hospital that they won't let me out I don't even know why I am posting this but there is nothing anybody can do for me I am a hopeless case sorry to bother you
TTFN
Dana
of April I don't work and I only have two friends one who lives 60 miles away and the other works and has 4 kids and a new boyfreind So the only people I talk to on a regular bases is my dh and my mom & sister I don't want to burden my mom or sister and I think my dh is getting tired of all my problems he is away this week end at a class and it seems like I am lost becuase I haven't spoken to him since friday I feel like a complete failure and I feel like everybody will be better off without me I wrote my dh and email last nite it was part of my journal just so he knows what is going on in case I do it I see my therphyist on Friday I haven't been that truthful to her about everything because I don't want to go into the hospital I am scared if I go in the hospital that they won't let me out I don't even know why I am posting this but there is nothing anybody can do for me I am a hopeless case sorry to bother you
TTFN
Dana

Hi Dana and welcome to the board.... I think you will find this a supportive place to be. That is my hope, anyway!
Dana, you are not "hopeless"--you are hurting--there's a HUGE difference! I'm sure you probably know this but depression alters our perspective, takes away our hope and makes us feel powerless. But depression is also treatable! As is schizophrenia and your other diagnoses! Maybe not "curable" but DEFINITELY treatable to the point of feeling generally content with life and functioning well within it! How do I know? Well, I don't have schizophrenia but I HAVE suffered from severe depression, PTSD and anxiety. It isn't always easy but it IS much better than I ever imagined it could be and it can be that way for you, too!
Hi Dana,
I can relate to you being isolated and unemployed. I don't know your health situation but if you can get a part time job it makes all the difference to your self esteem. I only work 8 hours per week and I hate my job but honestly having the job makes me feel better about myself and I get a tiny paycheck, I keep busier and it tires me out a lot so I can sleep more.
If you can manage it, I advise it. The worst thing is to sit around all week with nohting to do but think about how much life sucks.
Set a goal for yourself, something you can work on in your current situation, something you can progress to, that will take a long time and energy. Such as working out, learning a skill, writing your autobiography, etc.
You need something to focus on, and a way to be productive.