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Registered: 06-10-2003
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Tue, 05-30-2006 - 10:56am
I just really want to die. I have OCD, I can't find a good psychiatrist that will help me, I'm miserable all the time, I'm so stressed about nothing. Today's my 30th birthday and I can't believe I'm beginning my 30s so miserably. I really wish for a disease to kill me. My husband can't take my depression anymore I'm sure. I am just at a loss.
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Registered: 03-09-2005
In reply to: bkro9
Tue, 05-30-2006 - 1:50pm

Hi Bkro,

I'm so sorry you feel so sad on your birthday. You said that you're stressed out over nothing but OCD isn't nothing, it's a health problem and a big issue.

I know it would be ironic to say "Happy Birthday," but at least you can be proud that you made it to age 30- that is something, you're now a third done with life! Yay!

I just wanted to send some magic dust over to you hoping your birthday will have at least a flash of joy in it at least once.

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Registered: 02-12-2004
In reply to: bkro9
Tue, 05-30-2006 - 2:35pm

Hi and welcome to the board--although, as for everyone I wish it were under better circumstances and that we didn't have NEED for such a board. At any rate, I'm glad it is here!


Things can look so "black" and hopeless when we're in the midst of it, can't it... I know, because as with others here, I've lived through it. I suffered from Major Depression off and on for many years and also with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder as well as an anxiety disorder. I know it's not easy--and I also know that it leaves one feeling hopeless. For many years, I was just existing and figuring that's all there was. When the suicidal urges/acts began, it just seemed like "What's the point? It will never get any better!"


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Registered: 06-10-2003
In reply to: bkro9
Wed, 05-31-2006 - 12:29am
I can't express to you how much I don't want to think anymore. I'm sick of it all. ALl I do is secretly cry and now I'm just so angry. At what? I don't know. I need help and I don't know what to do.
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Registered: 02-12-2004
In reply to: bkro9
Wed, 05-31-2006 - 11:57am

Hey there,


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Registered: 06-10-2003
In reply to: bkro9
Wed, 05-31-2006 - 11:59pm
I know I seemto be rambling lately. But I just need help. No one wants to help me with my OCD. I get one bad dr. after another. I just cry and cry. My husband doesn't deserve this. Please help me. Who do I call? What do I do?
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Registered: 02-12-2004
In reply to: bkro9
Thu, 06-01-2006 - 2:16pm

Hey there,


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Registered: 04-19-2003
In reply to: bkro9
Wed, 07-19-2006 - 5:32pm
yes, please do what lori suggested....take action, even if you have to call 911 and get to the ER. i had to do that twice in the last few months and it saved my life.
i know for me, i felt silly later, but there's nothing to be embarrassed about.
reach out, call out, for help...i'm praying for you.
take care,
nita