So depressed lately...just need someone
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So depressed lately...just need someone
| Fri, 06-02-2006 - 5:21pm |
To talk to. I dont know if anyone here remembers me at all.. i posted here a couple times before a few years ago .. and a couple times to tell you about my friend who posts on here (blackice). I dont understand why i am so sad today, but i just want to crawl into a hole. I am at work and could just cry at the drop of a pin. Nothing in my life makes me happy but my sweet baby girl, who will be 14 months in a few days.. i wish i could spend all day with her but of course i cant because we cannot afford it. I know that is not the root of my depression... at least i dont think so. I put on a happy face all the time b/c i dont want to be asked questions. When i try to talk to just a very few people abotu how i feel i feel like i am just burdening them because they have their own problems, and they dont need to hear abotu mine. And sometimes it really seems that they just do not care about mine.. even though i just want someone to TALK to and someone to understand. I cannot talk to my dh about being so sad bc he just doesnt get it. I dont think i am suicidal.. cant because i couldnt do that to my baby girl, i love her too much. However if it wasnt for her i really think i would not be here any more, and that scares me a bit to know i have lost control. Well, like i said i just wanted someone to talk to.. noone to judge me, just someone to listen and understand. Thankyou.

Hi Bradee and welcome back--although, I wish you weren't feeling so badly!
Depression is a tough one....especially if we are the type of person (as I am--lol!) that would find it helpful to know why we are feeling this way in the first place. It could be something going on chemically in your body, or it could be situational, or many other factors could come into play. Sometimes it's physical--brought on by a thyroid disorder or an illness such as diabetes.
Whatever the cause, it's important for you to monitor it...keep track of how long you've been feeling this way, what your symptoms are, etc. If it goes on longer than say, two to four weeks, consult your doctor! Depression is quite treatable!!
As for cause, please don't entirely discount the fact that you just had a baby 14 months ago and you clearly miss being home with her and watching her grow! Is there ANY way you could work towards that? Maybe work from home, or do job sharing? Or maybe you will eventually just decide that you are willing to do without some stuff in order to be able to meet this need? Then again, YOU know your situation best, and if it's not do-able, then hopefully you can resolve some of these feelings by seeking support on here and elsewhere.
Marsha
mommy to Rylee Elizabeth 4/12/2005
(((Bradee)))
You've come to the right place. I'm sorry that you're feeling this way. Can you identify when it started? That might help pinpoint the cause, but also remember depression can be caused by neurotransmitters in our brain being out of wack, so it is totally okay to not have a reason! If you're okay with the idea of meds, talk to your dr. Even if you're not okay with meds talk to your dr and maybe s/he can help you with coping