Fed up with people Trigs... weight issue

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Fed up with people Trigs... weight issue
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Tue, 06-06-2006 - 4:50pm

why does life have to be so hard, and why does it have to hurt so much.

Mary

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Mary
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Registered: 08-19-2004
Wed, 06-07-2006 - 8:51am
hey Mo. Per our conversation this morning on IM we need to stop all this Ed crap.. its destroying our friendship and you know thats the last thing i want. And I am sorry i cant be online every night when Tom is home.. you know how he gets.. but you can ALWAYS call me.. you know that. I want us to stop the talk/doing of L's dp's and p'ing.. and R'ing... everything ed related. We CAN do this mo... we did it before we can do it again. Carbs dont like us, lol. But hell, we have thyroid problems too.. so that makes it a million times more difficult for us to lose. But we CAN do this, in a healthy way with support from eachother... right?? I luv ya sis!!

Marsha 

mommy to Rylee Elizabeth 4/12/2005 

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Wed, 06-07-2006 - 1:54pm

Hey Mary,


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Wed, 06-07-2006 - 2:32pm
Lori, I can not give up my ED bc if I do then I lose who I am, and I will become fatter then I already am, trust me I have allowed my ed to let go of me for a while and look at me now I am bigger then I have ever been, I weigh more now then I did when I was pregnant my ED is the only thing that I can sort of control in my life and I say sort of bc I do know that it will get out of hand but I do have a long ways to go b4 I get my weight down so low that I am at risk. Sometimes I wish I could live life without my ED, but I am not willing to do that right now. I am not sure why bradee and I arent getting along I guess I get angry at her bc I feel as if she can do it but I cant that to me is BS, and a lot of it is probably the diet pills that I have been taking, in all honsety I guess it is like me doing my SI. I am just not going to discuss my ED with Bradee or anyone else that way I wont get into fights with anyone. You didnt make me angry at all Lori or get on my nerves.
Mary
Mary
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Wed, 06-07-2006 - 2:42pm

marsha I Know you cant be online everynight and that is fine but you seem to get upset when I am gone, and as far as me calling you I would call you but I dont know if Tom is in a good mood or not and I dont want him to treat you the way he does when we are on the phone. I am not going to talk to you about ED at all bc I dont want to ever be accussed of playing games or doing this for attention bc I am not doing either one, you know that my T has taught me to be open about my ED that way I am not being secretive about it, but now I am going to, I have to like I said I would be devastated if our friendship was over you have touched me and we are closer then I ever was to Tonya and I rather like ya sis you were there for me when my g-ma passed away.
luv ys sis

Mary

Mary
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Wed, 06-07-2006 - 3:16pm

Hey Mary-- I know we met on the ed board years ago, but a great frienship/sisterhood came out of that and i dont want to lose that. I know i get mad when u do ed stuff but then i go and do it myself. I know it doesnt make sense, i guess its because you had a stroke years ago and im so afriad ill lose my sis. Soometimes you just really piss me off, ya know?? lol . I cant WAIT till August when we get to go camping together.. and u get to see little Rylee though! (then i can kick ur @$$) ha ha

Marsha

Marsha 

mommy to Rylee Elizabeth 4/12/2005 

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Wed, 06-07-2006 - 3:25pm
yea I know our friendship has become more then a friendship we have become sisters, and yes I know I can be a pain in the ass most of the time and make u look like the bad guy when it is me that starts fights and I am sorry about that sis.
Mary
Mary
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Registered: 08-19-2004
Wed, 06-07-2006 - 3:28pm

Oh mo, we cant all be perfect. Take ur many many flaws and reflect on them..

KIDDING!

No we are both very stubborn , and well.. ya know. lol

Marsha 

mommy to Rylee Elizabeth 4/12/2005